OnandOff Sophomore Year (DanaIM5)

Chapter 57

Songs:
Animal-Neon Trees
King of Anything-Sarah Bareilles
Give me Love-Demi Lovato cover
Easy Love- R5
Songs I Can't Listen To-Neon Trees
Can't Help Falling In Love-Ingrid Michelson
Flightless Bird-American Mouth
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"You okay?" Dana asks

"Yeah I'm fine." I say

Dana leans in to kiss me. I give him a quick kiss then turn around. We were at his house. We've been back together for a few weeks now.

"Babe, what's wrong?" He asks again

"Nothing. I'm just tired. I'm fine, I promise."

I was not fine. I feel like I'm going insane. I feel like shit.

"I wanna make cookies." I say hoping that this would change the subject.

"Let's go to the store then."

I kiss him then get off the bed and grab my shoes. I grab his sweater and put it on. The sweater is starting to become more mine than his.
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We sat in his room cross legged in front of each other eating cookies. I smile at him and kiss his nose. Only he can silence the voices in my head, at least for a little bit.

"This is the shittiest cookie I've ever eaten." He says and takes a huge bite.

"Well thanks." I say and laugh

"I'm just playing babe. They're good." He says and stares to lean in then takes a bite if my cookie instead of kissing me.

"Hey!"

He smiles at me then kisses me. He pulls away and looks at me. He kisses me again and I smile. His hands go to my hips and my hands go into his hair. He starts to tickle me. I laugh uncontrollably.

"Dana stop!" I yell in between laughs

He stops and kisses me again.
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I look at myself crying. My hands are on the counter and are rocking me back and forth. I look in the bathroom mirror and point out everything I think is wrong with me.

I'm supposed to be getting ready to go out with the girls. I got side tracked. I take one last sad glance at myself then actually try to make myself look decent.
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Me and the girls go to Destiny's house after we left the mall. We all go to her room and sit down.

"So how's you and Dana?" Eden Ann asks

"Good." I reply

"Have you guy, you know, again?" Alondra asks referring to sex

"No."I say and laugh

We all laugh.

"I still can't believe it." Destiny says

"I know it's so weird."I tell her
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I walk in to my house and lock the door. I see my mom in the kitchen. I give her a hug.

"Hey." I tell her

"Hey." She says

"What's wrong?" I ask

"Nothing. Just tired. I'm gonna go to sleep. Night I love you." She says

"Love you too. Night." I say and she walks up the stairs.

I walk to my room and hope that nothing is wrong. I change into pajamas and lay in bed. I put my earphones in so that I'll hear music instead of my mind telling me everything that is wrong. I get a text from Dana telling me goodnight and to have sweet dreams.

"I'll try." I whisper
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Hey guys so I hope you liked it. I know I've been slacking and I'm sorry. I will try to update more and it's summer now so hopefully I will. Love you guys!