You have no idea how hard this is for me right now.
Okay. So lately I haven't been updating my books. Heck I haven't even been on this account for almost months.
You have no idea how much of a failure I feel like right now. Such a freaking failure.
I've failed all of you. The tears are dripping into my keyboard now. My hands a trembling I can't even write properly...
But I can't continue. I know you must all hate me so much. I hate myself just as much, maybe even more.
I can't continue this story, or any of these or even the account. I'm gonna take it down.
It's not just the books! It's the writing the characters everything is just so screwed up and I hate it so damn much.
I guess it started a long time ago when I started losing interest. Making up excuses and procrastinating. But now it's final. My bestfriend always told me to give all or nothing at all. So I guess it's nothing.
I've just been so down these last weeks and months.
I haven't been clean for days and suicide is becoming something even prettier to me.
Most of you have probably stopped reading this now.
So I'm just gonna end this here.
I'm taking down this account. You can have my books and everything, give me credit or not I don't really care.
It'll be down by this Saturday, 6th June 2015.
I'm so sorry. I really am. But I can't go on.
Never more punk rock,
Amber💋
