Just Friends (NO LONGER WORKING ON THIS BOOK)

Chapter 4

Once we get the snacks, we walk back to my room. We're silent, but it's not the bad kind of silence. Our hands are intertwined. I'm still confused. I know that I love her. But, that doesn't mean that she loves me back. Of course, there is a chance she does. Well, I think there's a pretty high chance at this point.

I know that I love her, but I don't know if I'm ready to love her. I know that might sound weird, but there's not really any other way to explain it. It's funny, because I'm starting to think that this might be the same thing Charlie is going through. Maybe we're not ready for this.

Just thinking about that slightly hurts. I want her. I want to be with her. But, maybe we shouldn't do this. Maybe it's not meant to be. Maybe that's why everything keeps going wrong.

We get to the door, and she looks at me. It's quite an odd look. She's smiling, but she doesn't seem... happy? It looks more like she's worried. Or sad. Or both. She squeezes my hand one final time before letting go and opening the door.

Justice and Kit look at each other and smirk, before Justice scoffs and says bitterly, "God, finally! You guys took forever! Speaking of which, what were you guys doing?" They questioned as they took a Snickers bar out of Charlie's hand, wiggling their eyebrows. Kit shoves them off the beanbag chair.

I turn a bit red and look away. Normally, I would have a snarky response. However, I can't really deny the fact that me and Charlie had just made out for 5 minutes straight before we came in here. Pun intended.

Before I can even think of anything to say, Charlie replies, "Your mom".

"Wow, very mature, Charlie." Kit notes, rolling his eyes. He grabs the M&Ms from my grasp and turns to Justice for help. Justice looks at him like he's giving them a knife; concerned and confused, but also amused and excited.

"What's this for? Ohhh, I get it now. Poor Kitty can't open the M&Ms. How pathetic." Justice smirks once more. Charlie sighs and sits down on the bed, motioning for me to sit next to her. I hesitate for a moment. Why does she want me to sit next to her? She was too embarrassed to even hold hands in front of Kit and Justice, and now she wants me to sit next to her, just a mere inch from her.

If she loves me, or even has feelings for me, then why would she be giving me such mixed signals. One moment we'll be kissing and flirting and holding hands, and the next, we're acting like we don't even know each other. But at the same time, if the feelings weren't mutual, then why would she even do anything remotely romantic around me? Maybe she's... confused. Like me. Except her being confused makes me even more confused.

Kit hits play on the remote, and the chaos amongst us suddenly falls as the intro music starts playing. I've seen this movie before. Maybe once or twice in the past year; It's Alessia's favorite movie.

I don't exactly see why she loves it so much. It has unrealistic romance in it. I know that a bit too well now. The movies make romance have only one conflict in their way, but in reality, it's completely different. It's not just one tiny conflict. It's thousands and thousands of problems and conflicts that get in the way. With same gender romance, it's even worse.

Speaking of which, the majority of those movies have straight, male and female, protagonists. Now tell me, when was the last time you saw a romance movie with two females as the protagonists, or any same gender romance protagonists?

We're around 30 minutes into the movie when my eyelids start to feel heavy. I look at Charlie, and I accidently lock eyes with her. She smiles and looks down at our hands, and I panic a bit. Before we came in here, she stopped holding my hand for a reason. Because she didn't want our friends to see. But now, she's acting like she wants to hold my hand again.