Hanni's POV
I closed the door and open it again, just making sure that I'm not dreaming. I pinched my arm and slapped my face. That hurts. I look like an idiot here. Now I'm wide awake, fully conscious and terrifically alive.
" s-Stop hurting YmyouRself,
My Hanni"
Her words trembled as she struggled to open her eyes, her cheeks flushed with a deep shade of red. Then the moment that I didn't realized that I'm hugging her tightly because she's about to falloff. She gasped for air, barely able to form a sentence, and then she collapsed.
It was this moment where intense emotion occurred, as if all the weight of the world had suddenly fallen upon me. I don't know what to do, the woman that left me years ago comes back unexpectedly.
With no other option, I wrapped her arm around my shoulder and guided her to my room. She's so heavy, my body is about to give up. As I laid her down, the weight of the situation hit me back into reality. The scent of alcohol was strong, and it was visible that she's drunk.
Too many questions are running through my head. How did she know my location? Why did she appear here in this state? But those questions are not what important now. For the mean time, I need to change her dress and make sure she was comfortable first.
As I watch her sleeping, I couldn't feel any hatred at all. Despite everything that happened, all the pain that I endured, I found myself longing for her once again. It was a vulnerability I couldn't afford, yet couldn't resist.
I felt tears streaming down my face. Countless unanswered 'whys' plagued me, threatening to consume me entirely. But after all, one thing that is hard to admit, my heart had never stopped loving the woman who had hurt me throughly.
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Minji's POV
"YOU'RE A HARDHEADED KID, KIM MINJI " my father shouted, I tried to hold back tears, but it was no use. His hurtful words were too much to bear.
"I'm n-not a kid anymore" I replied as my fists clenching at my sides. I couldn't stand to listen to their insensitive words about my relationship with Hanni. Why couldn't they just let me love who I wanted?
"YOU ARE A DISGRACE TO THIS FAMILY, I DON'T HAVE A GAY DAUGHTER" My father's words stabbed me like hell. I couldn't help but feel like I was suffocating.
"THEN I WISH I WAS NEVER BORN IN THIS STUPID HOUSEHOLD" I shouted back, unable to control my anger. Then my father slapped my face, leaving a stinging sensation as I touch it.
"That's what you get from your friends? Being rude, being homosexual?" he spat, as if my sexuality was some sort of contagious disease.
But my friends had nothing to do with my situation. It was my choice to love Hanni. Blame it all on me. I was tired of hiding our relationship, tired of dealing with my homophobic parents. I wished my family could be supportive like hers, where we could love each other without judgment.
"Break up with her" my father demanded, and my heart shattered into a million pieces. The mere thought of not seeing Hanni for a day was unbearable.
The words that came out from his mouth next is what breaks me the most.
"Your mom is dying"
"WHAT?? WHAT DO YOU MEAN?" I cried louder, stuck in this situation whether I should take my pride down.
" She has cancer for about 8 months now, we couldn't say it to you because we don't want you to worry."
" YOU COULD HAVE SAID IT TO ME"
" I'm sorry, you're too young to be stressed out about her disease"
" IT'S NOT AN EXCUSE, I DESERVE TO KNOW IT. YOU TREAT ME LIKE I'M NOT PART OF THIS FAMILY"
"Please, Minji. Take care of your mom. Go to the States. I'm begging you."
My heart ached at the thought of losing my mother, but I knew I had to be strong for her. I couldn't let my own pain get in the way of taking care of her.
"I'll go," I said in a low tone
"I'll take care of her."
That's why she's always wearing a head dress, she lied to me that it's all just about fashion. Now I'm blaming myself, I should've payed more attention on her. I'm sorry Mom, hold on a little longer.
As I walked out of my father's office, tears streaming down my face, I couldn't help but feel like my world was falling apart. But I knew I had to hold on, for my mother's sake. I would do whatever it took to make sure she was okay.
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Italics font are flashbacks.
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Harder than a Diamond (BBANGSAZ)
FanfictionA Bbangsaz AU Minji suddenly disappeared without any explanation, leaving Hanni heartbroken and devastated. She was ghosted and tried to move on, but it was not easy as everything reminded her of her past love. Years later, destiny brought them back...
