Lukas,
I'm not living with Gilbert anymore. I was kicked out. I could not pay rent and could not support myself. I am also in debt with him for all the trips to Europe. I messed up gradually and refuse to go to Berwald and Tino for help. They are just getting back into their life as Tino graduated and got hired as a history teacher at a middle school. My relationship with Berwald is hanging by a thread. I've gotten into several fights with Berwald over absolutely nothing. Berwald kept pressuring me to get a better job but I just passed it off. I'm now living on the street. And Tino and Berwald can never know.
I can't go to Alfred, for he moved somewhere over the rainbow with Kiku. It wasn't a matter of time before Elizabeta informed me that Roderich moved in with Gilbert. Typical.
I can't say I'm pissed. I honestly don't care. I don't care about anything anymore. I don't even care about your response. I have written to you for ages, and just knowing that I have sent them is good enough for me. I haven't eaten in a while and I spent my last money on stamps and letters. I'm not hungry anymore. I never am. I only care about you. People may address my situation as an unhealthy obsession, but I don't care. I have lost track of the letters I have sent. I believe I have sent around thirty letters. Some of the letters are filled with anger and frustration, some are filled with my journeys, and others are filled with both worry and apologies.
Once I get a job and buy more post, I will send letters to you everyday. I can't wait!
Love,
Matthias
Sorry this was an emotional joyride. I intend to tie in their wedding by the way. Alright, peace for now!
-Anya
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Letters to Lukas
FanfictionMatthias' life is ordinary and he sticks by a very strict schedule. He wakes up, gets ready for work, goes to work, and when he gets home- he writes letter to an old friend, Lukas. Matthias had lost track of how many years he has been writing, bu...
