Life With Thrill | GxG

13 - getting it off their chest

-- Casey's POV --

I shut the door of my car, putting my hands on the steering wheel and rethinking the decision for the 10th time.

What Grace confessed to me made me feel so embarrassed. I can't say i wouldn't of admitted to Laila that i like her at some point but to admit it when i was drunk, how vulnerable was i?

I wanted to apologize to Laila. In her point of view it would be completely confusing but i needed to. I felt the need to explain that it was just in the moment confessions. It didn't mean anything but god did i want it to say it was true but no, i can't allow this to continue like that.

I switched the engine on, directing myself to drive over to her house. It was a day off today and i had no need to be visiting her but i couldn't sleep. My mind kept me up for hours last night.

I knew she had to be home from work herself though, the boss genuinely doesn't have days off so i picked the right time to go.

I drove into the front yard of her mansion, switching the car off and noticing that the two of hers cars were here. Raising my relief yet stress level right after.

I got to the front door, hesitating once again on what i am doing right now but before i could know it, the doorbell was rung. Making me stand frozen and hope she doesn't open the front door.

But obviously the door opened and my eyes immediately locked on hers. Her lips forming a smile to the sight of me.

"Casey? You?" She questioned while gesturing me in. I stepped inside, absorbing her close the door. "Listen, i want to talk to you." I pushed the words out, trying my best to hold the eye contact. She ordered me further in but light confusion spread among her face by now.

"I fucked up, alright. Grace explained the shit i told you at the party and i came to tell you that it wasn't true, okay?" I spoke out confidently, deciding to deny the confession i made. "I don't like you at all. Well not in that way. You're my boss and it's wrong to look at you in any other way rather than just business related." I continued as i could tell she allowed me to speak it all out.

"Laila, you're gorgeous. I'm serious, you're the most beautiful person i could have ever laid my eyes on. The way you act, the way you look is just-" I immediately stopped my words, completely losing it on what the hell i am saying right now.

"So what exactly are you trying to deny? The fact that your confession wasn't true or that you liking me isn't the right words to express your feelings towards me?" I watched her lips go up into a smile after saying that.

I fucked up again, didn't it? How the fuck did i go from denying the confession to almost admitting that i love her? How messed up is my mind right now that i'm mixing up my thoughts with what i want to say out loud!

"No, wait! I'm trying to say that i don't like you! Gosh, i don't want you in that way. No sexual or romantic way." I completely stuttered out my word phrasing, self smacking myself in my mind.

"So you hate me?" She asked in the middle of this, blowing complete frustration over me about what i even said just a second ago. "No! I don't hate you. I like you." I blurred it out to answer her question.

"You know, you aren't really making a point right now, Casey." Her voice came at me but following it with a chuckle.

Oh my god. I'm so fucked up. I should of prepared more on how to phrase everything!

"Listen, you don't have to lie to me. Imagine this as i'm not your boss. That were friends like we have been and tell me everything that you want to but with pure honesty." Laila spoke those words out to me. Making me pause for a few seconds to gather myself together.

My stress was just too high ever since i got in the car to drive here. I'm an adult and i'm acting like a child right now. Stumbling over every word on trying to say that i like a person.

"Laila, i fucking like you. I can't deny it. I tried but just failed so badly that i regret even coming here." I tilted my head down, breaking apart the eye contact after saying it.

But i could see her step closer, her finger lifting my head back up by chin. Our eyes met again and all i could see was pure love in hers.

"I'm glad you got the courage to say what you feel." My eyes had looked down to her lips, seeing the proud smile form on them.

I wanted to kiss her.

So fucking badly.

"But now phrase it deeper. I can see you didn't admit everything." Her words stopped my thought as i just stared at her. My mind telling me to run away but my heart saying to stay still and speak it all out.

"I'm.. in love with you." I carefully whispered the sentence out. A wave of relief going down my body from getting it off my chest.

She stepped even closer to me, breaking the airway between our bodies but her lips went closer to my ear, making me freeze in place and wait for what she'll do.

"I'm in love with you, darling."

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