Anytime, Anywhere For You

11. Last Week Of Bliss

For the remainder of our stay in Thailand, we relocated to Bangkok. We stayed in the same hotel we did when we first arrived and we spent most of our time under the sheets.

When we weren't making love or fucking, we went to the beach or the night market. We made a habit to not just stay in the hotel all day.

Today, we pack some of our stuff and prepare to leave Sunday. Jey went to workout at the hotel's gym and I went to explore the buffet. My period is horrible this month and my cramps are killing me.

I pig out on a bunch of sweets, until I feel better and head back to the room. I frown to see Jey's still not back from the gym. I sigh and go out to the balcony for some fresh air.

I leave the door cracked and lean against the railing. The view is stunning. The beaches here remind me of Florida. It's not as crowded, but it's beautiful all the same.

It's a cloudy day, so the wind is cooler than usual. It feels good against my feverish skin. I sigh, a bit saddened at the fact that we're leaving soon. But, I know Jey and I will go to other places.

We might even come back one day with Josiah and our family.

I push my hair behind my ear, as I breathe in deeply. I groan, as I start cramping again and bury my head in my arms.

I'm surprised my period even came. I half expected to be pregnant with the amount of unprotected sex Jey and I have been having.

I don't want to be pregnant right now, but I do want to have a family with Jey one day.

Lately I've been having this fear of not being able to become pregnant. Would Jey still wanna be with me if I can't have kids?

I run my fingers through my hair in frustration. Before, the thought of being a mom didn't seem realistic to me. The thought actually scared me a bit.

But now, I want to be a mom. I love being a mother to Josiah and Jey has said he wants to have a family with me, but what if I can't give that to him? To us?

A chill goes up my spine and I feel tears well up in my eyes.

I turn and gasp, as I hear the sliding door open and Jey smiles at me.

"Hey, Bae. You good?" He asks.

I frown and nod. "Yeah..I'm fine."

I smile and Jey walks up to me. He places his hand on my cheek and I lower my eyes.

"What's wrong, Baby?" He asks sweetly.

I groan and lower my head to his chest.

"It's stupid.." I whimper.

"No it's not. Whatever is bothering you, isn't stupid." Jey whispers.

I look up at him and frown. Jey sighs and wipes the tears from my cheeks.

"If you don't wanna tell me, fine. But, I went out to buy some heating pads for your cramps and some snacks." Jey pulls me into our room.

We walk into the kitchen and he hands me some shrimp flavored lays. I giggle and hold them up.

"What's this?" I ask.

Jey shrugs shyly. "I was curious."

I shake my head and reach into the bag. I pull out a cookies and cream Hershey bar and rip open the package. I bite into it and hum, happily.

Jey smiles. "What did you do while I was gone?"

I bite into the Hershey and shrug. "Went the the restaurant."