ARE WE MEANT TO BE?/ Bill Kaulitz

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thanks god i found one store that i can hide to. i don't want to run away from them but i'm scared of what will they do. are they going to send me to a mental hospital? no no no. shut up camilla.

i went into the store as the cashier smiled at me. i don't know what she was thinking since it was already dark outside. i went around till i saw a car. i watched it as i realized that it's mine...

shit it must have been the boys. i quickly found a shelf so i can listen to their conversation while they can't see me.

"hi did you maybe saw this girl?" i heard bill say as he showed a picture of me to the cashier. 'please don't say anything.' "yes she came here like 5 minutes ago." she said. 'for fucks sake'.

i moved from my spot but i crashed into something as it fell down. "camilla!" i heard tom yell for me. "are you there meine liebe?" i heard bill yell then. i wanted to shout back to them so bad but i can't. i can't let them see me in that state.

i went backwards as i bumped into the door. i heard bill and tom calling me runing around the store trying to find me. i opened the door. they led me outside. i ran out as door behind me closed. i started runing when i heard the door open again.

i heard tom yell something at bill in german but i couldn't understand. i was way to far away to hear anything clear. i was runing till i got to the gas station. as i entered i saw a fimiliar face behind the counter. as i got closer i realised it was juan.

my eyes widened as i got tears in my eyes. he looked up and when he realised that it was me he ran to me hugging me. he lifted me between the hug and spined me around. as he put me down i grabed his face. our heads were leaned on eachother. i cried of happiness as did he.

after the meet we went to sit behind the counter. juan was my childhood best friend. he was the same age as bill and tom.

"where have you been?" i asked him as i held his hand tightly never wanting to let go. i finally got my best friend back. "oh camilla." he sighed. "if only you would have been there." he said smiling at me. "juan are you okay?" i said as i sat up across him. "camilla my mom and dad broke up." he said as he looked down.

how is that posible. his parents were the most perfect couple i have ever seen. "what why?" i asked concerned. "well my dad cheated on my mom while we were on holidays in USA." he said. "that's why i came back to you." he said with a smile on his face. "oh juan i missed you so much." i sigged as i hugged him again.

"so camilla what brings you here in the middle of the night?" he asked me letting go of the hug. "i told him everything about my depression kicks and my SH and eating disorters. i also told him that i ran away from bill an tom and that they are searching for me. i even told him everything about bill.

"you are so in love with him cam." he said smilling at me. "why would you ran away from him?" he asked me. i looked down at the floor. "is he toxic like terrence?" he asked me concerned. "oh god no." i quickly said as i looked back up. "i just don't want him to see me like this. i don't know what he'll think about me." i said. "he knows about everything juan." i said as he hugged me. i loved his hugs.

the ball rang as someone came into the station causing us to break the hug. juan stod up and smiled at the customers. "hi how can i help you?" juan asked them politely. i was still under the counter hiding from bill and tom. "we are searching for this girl." someone said. for fuck sake. how did they found me again. juan figured that it's the boys that i told him about. "no sorry i haven't seen her." juan told them as bill sighed. "tom she's not here." he told tom as tom got back at the counter.

"sorry for bothering you." i heard bills sad voice. i wanted to stod up and hug him but what if he hates me now. after all he must think that i'm disgusting. besides i have been hiding from him for so long. i put my hand over my mouth as i started crying not letting any voice out.

"they left." i hear juan say as he sat beside me again. "juan can you do me a favour?" i asked him with tears in my eyes. "anything." he said wiping my tears away. "can i stay the night at yours?" i asked while waiting for him to respond.

hi this is autor. i just finished reading my living nightmare and i'm bawling my eyes out.i swear i never cried so much over a book😭.
byeeeee💋