Midnight Rain

Chapter 15

Will you keep me close ?

Will you love me more?

The house was unusually far today. Even if Tin sped up to the maximum limit it still couldn't be fast enough. Closer and closer and close enough. Bang! Without even caring to park his car Tin ran into his house and frantically roamed his eyes around. The darkness of the house was a bit depleted by the moonlight that shone through the open curtains and in such a dim light, his eyes slowly started to adapt as he made his way upstairs.

Tin stood frozen right at the entrance, the door tightly shut was going to give him his biggest happiness. With his heart beating like a hoodlum drum, his hands tightly grasped the doorknob and twisted it open. No one. Tin's heart dropped. He isn't here. So where? He must be back! He must be So where? As he anxiously made his way inside, his legs started giving up. His energy was wasted all on the momentary excitement and his legs gave up on the gravest disappointment. He slumped beside the bed and started crying on his knees. His heavily clouded heart was bleeding.

"Tin, You're home....." A soft whisper curled into his earlobes. Tin shook his head. This is it! I'm hallucinating again! Again and again! He shut both his ears and tightly shut his eyes. The voice came closer and closer. Tin could hear faint foot steps. So real. As if it was really happening.

"Tin..... What's wrong? Don't you want to see me?" The voice was so clear. Tin's heart ached at his own imaginations. He crouched down and hid in his own knees. His lips shivered in dampness of his tears. "I'm sorry..... I'm sorry Gun.... I'm sorry! Don't do this to me!" He fiercely shouted without opening his eyes. Fearing his illusions will break him apart.
Tin tried to grasp every piece of his sanity. His senses were loosening and he could feel it himself deep within.

Gun stood terrified. He didn't imagine to find Tin in such a state. When he came home yesterday, he found him wrecked, yes, however he blamed in all the drinks he had drowned himself in. The whole day, he saw Tin completely normal. In the end his heart only felt happy that Tin was not so miserable. However now.... He couldn't bear to look at him. Guilt and sadness engulfed him all together as he pulled the shivering figure into his warm embrace "Tin.... Don't worry.... I'm here..... I'm here....." he softly whispered on the ears of the other.

Tin groaned in the realness of the warmth. The scent that penetrated his senses were awfully familiar. The sweetness he craved was distinctly present. "Gun!" He called out as he desperately tightened the hug. "Gun! You're back? Are you really back? Are you?" He clung onto his shoulder's and his voice shook seeking for confirmation.

Gun gently caressed the weakened figure and nodded softly "Ummm I'm back" his voice gently provided reassurance that Tin was so much looking for and a burst of wails resounded in the room as Tin helplessly sobbed in his love's arms. The heaviness in his heart slowly dissipating and it started to ache instead in completely ecstasy.

"Don't go! Don't leave me ever again! Stay with me! Promise me!" Tin slouched on top of him and smothered his back. His body desperately pressed onto Gun's trying to regain his most desired warmth. "Don't leave me! Gun! I can't live without you! Please don't leave me!" He cried in complete sadness and Gun was to witness it in his completely shattered heart. His whole being went limp on the state Tin was in. He thought he was strong. He thought he would get better in time. How wrong was he?

Gun tightly closed his eyes in Tin's embrace. His nodded vigorously while Tin asked for ample reassurance. "I won't! I won't go anywhere Tin.... I won't! I'm sorry! I'm so sorry I left you like this! I'm so sorry Tin! I won't ever leave you again!"