Breaking Habits

Chapter 26- Beth-Pining

I shared myself with you then you left. I was foolish to believe that you were different. I let you in and that makes me fucking angry.

I crossed that out like the rest of my scribbles. That's not what I want to write. I want to scream all that's inside my head at Micah's face, but I can't.

"Beth! We're waiting." Cassie says knocking against the car window.

Leila is getting married next week and it's her hen party tonight. Sex and seduction is the theme and so far, everything is going great. We're bar hopping around the city and just arrived at Pessac Lounge where Leila is meeting up her fiancé and his party.

"Come on Beth! Dante's here," Cassie calls out again.

I haven't seen him since my party and Leila's gathering the group in their respective pairs. The invite said I should bring someone for this part of the evening, but I don't have a date to bring. I told Leila that and she paired me with him. It's awkward but I'm going with the flow with hopes the night will be over soon.

"Come on. The papz are waiting." Cassie says dramatically motioning me to get out of the car.

Ready, I tuck the notebook in my bag then pull out my compact mirror to check my makeup. Micah's necklace catches my eye, and I stop to stare at the annoying sight. I've been wearing it for weeks, and it's all for nothing.

I should listen to mom's advice. It's clear, he's not interested. He hasn't called nor has he returned any of my phone calls, and I don't know if he's keeping his word and is staying exclusive, like I am. I'm so lost on where things are between us and trying to prove myself is just pointless because he's not here to see it.

With that in mind, I take off the necklace then plaster on a smile before I get out of the car.

Lights flash and cameras clicks as soon as they see me, and when I join the others to act out our roles, Dante hugs then dips me. His leg wedged between my thighs makes his cock rubs against my pussy and knowing it, he smiles.

As he holds me in place, he exhales and his breath fans across my breast making my nipples tighten. Holding the pose, I smile at him then at the cameras, and after ten minutes of our sexy acts, Leilah ends the show before she leads us inside.

***

Leila made us change, now I'm wearing a silky red dress. It's late in the night, and the party is still going, I'm also drunk out of my mind.

I don't remember having that much to drink after Dante handed me the first one. He gave it to me as a peace-offering as we were tip toeing around each other for most of the evening. He even apologises for how he left on the first time after we had sex. Now somehow, he and I are making out in a dark corner away from the party. I don't know who instigated it but I'm having too much fun to care.

"Turn around," he tells me breathing down my neck.

The second I do, he hikes up my dress, moves my thongs aside then plugs his thumb inside me. Relieved by his touch, I push back on his hand just as he thrust it further up.

"Feels good-don't it?"

The pleasure I've been denying myself hisses out long and slow, but suddenly the promises I made to Micah comes crashing down, causing guilt to cloud my mind.

"Dante, stop."

Ignoring me, he carries on and although I want this, my mind won't let me enjoy it.

"Wanna go somewhere else?"

I hate that he's right. "Just get off me." I say arching off his hand as a camera flash somewhere in the background.

"What's the matter?" He asks still standing at my back. "We've been dancing around each other for the longest time Beth, so quit the bullshit, I know you want it, and me."