Transmigrated into the worst concubine (BL)

chapter 123

The day it all happened, the day his world changed, the day his misery began, a simple day out with his husband or rather her husband. A simple yet inexplicable phenomenon happened that took away everything.

Wen Ying was just meeting her brother who came from abroad. Her brother was an extraordinary man who she had not even seen in over two years. It was a chance to reunite with him but being extraordinary is not always good and that is why she didn't want to pay the price of fame.

She remembers that day so clearly when the many men with guns and weapons came she remembers how many people got killed that day, she remembers the embrace of a stranger protecting her from the bullet that man was Wei Zhao.

Who knew it was then their two destinies would forever be intertwined, when her first reincarnation happened she did not understand what was going on, didn't understand why she changed genders or where she was but she remembers running and searching for a way home.

This ancient world was very different from home, customs, will and traditions. Unable to find her way home she feels grief and despair and for an era that didn't understand that she was considered a witch, her first life how the so called parents tried to 'help' her only leading her to be punished by amputation becoming a cripple. As if that was not enough she was married off to a vile man who took advantage of her then had her thrown to the dogs.

And as if she didn't suffer too much in her first life she had to regress, but before she could repeat it she ran away. But gents were not treated and were sometimes treated lower than the average woman, becoming a prostitute to sexual urges and desires of the body and later to end up beaten to death by a customer.

She can't go and she can't stay, what should she do?

But as if someone heard her prayers she met him, the prince or rather the man who helped her. He too wanted a way home unlike her, he wasn't ready to give up many hypotheses, theoris, phenomena etc...

He was the hope she needed and the friend she gained, the desires they shared were real. They but it was them against this world and this world hates them, a prince, a potential heir to the throne as well as threat.

Her hope died before her very eyes, protecting her once again.

"ZHAO! ZHAO!"

To protect her from the preyers of a father and brothers. Ending that life the next life he found her and they ran away, seeking the path to home. Even in this unbearable world she had him a little hope to cling on to.

"Hmm maybe there is a path that this world wants us to follow? Then maybe when we complete it we will be able to return home"

"Path?"

"Yes, like something we should do and complete it then maybe we can finally return home"

They both shared the same desperate desire to leave, but when not being killed they starve, war struck and the country's economic system begins to collapse. Barely food, money or anything and soon her friend had to die.

Another life, and another life they tried many paths but none of them was willing to give up.

"Hey, why are you so desperate to return home anyway?" She asks.

"I have to meet up with an old friend, I haven't met him in years" he said with a soft smile

"Old friend? Lover?"

Zhao blushes, "N-No, never, he's rude, can't understand flirting and worse he can't COOK!! Besides... he doesn't swing that way"

"When we return I'll see if I can set you up, I am a wife with kids after haha"

Even during the horrible times just the moments with Zhao made the pain ease and they could face anything...

"You know, I hate to say this but there is one path we haven't tried"

"Hmm? What is that?"

"Lovers, you and I tried many paths and I've been reading books like novels what if this world wants us to be... destined lovers"

It was risky for both of them, a woman with a man and family she loves and he, a man with unrequited or maybe it was just risky for her.

But sometimes sacrifices must be made, sex is not love, you can love someone and not be lovers as well as you can build a family with someone and not be a true family. This mundane life was peaceful and though they had a child together they couldn't be called lovers but for the first time in many lifetimes they felt it getting closer to their goals.

And so another life began but there was a problem.

"Hey, can you promise me something?"

"What?"

"If I should forget everything please, don't give up please return home... even if it's just you"

"What do you mean? ZHAO!!"

"I've been noticing this for some time but, this world has been eating away at my memories. You show no signs of losing your memories which could mean you have a different side effect from the constant regression, but I can't tell you what it is but the side effects for me is that it I will lose myself" he touches his chest with a painful smile, "you'll be on your own from now"

And just as said in the next life, Zhao didn't recognize Wen Ying. Zhao didn't need to tell him the side effects because Wen Ying already knew what they were and it was quite obvious, it's simply the fact that Wen Ying felt nothing towards these people as if they were sheets of paper objects of entrainment, imitations of humans she feels this world is not real. And her obsession towards returning home didn't make it better.

If Wen Ying was a vicious and deadly dog and this world was a man passing by then the Zhao with memories are her leech and now the leech is gone.

She didn't love Zhao, but she was obsessed with him and her obsession left her with no morals or borderline. In many lifetimes Zhao dies miserably when he is not the emperor, he even falls in love with people who were not her, the world was adamant in getting in her way and so she removes any obstacles repeating her miserable existence.

So she can see her family once again...

A/n

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