Ghost BC - Trans Papas

IX - Trans s/o

Terzo x Trans Reader chapter

It was a cozy evening at the ministry which you had spent for the past hour with Terzo on his sofa, you closely cuddled up to him while he was reading a few lines of his favourite book to you. You looked at him with admiration as his beautiful eyes scanned the words carefully. It was so calm and peaceful listening to him that after a while you gently rested your head on his shoulder and closed your eyes, feeling how the sound of his soothing voice would drag you to another dimension. You had almost fallen asleep as his voice stopped to the sound of a slight yawn escaping your mouth.
"Are you tired, amore?", he chuckled softly and you shook your head slowly.
"I just like the sound of your voice", you smiled gently and he gave you a gentle kiss on the forehead.
"Well do you wish to change into something more comfortable?"
"I don't want to leave your room", you wrapped your arms around him as a sign of not wanting to let go off him and he chuckled at how adorable you were.
"I could just lend you a few of my clothes, tesoro"
As you imagined yourself in Terzo's huge, comfortable looking clothes, you couldn't think of anything more cozy to spend the rest of the evening in so you let go off your boyfriend and let him grab something for you.
"Here", he said and handed you a black hoodie and sweatpants.
"This is my favourite hoodie so you know how special you are to me", he smiled warmly and waited until you got changed.
A few minutes later, you returned from the bathroom and found yourself practically swimming in his hoodie but you absolutely loved it. You dived your face inside the soft fabric and inhaled his smell which he watched in awe.
"You look so adorable, amore", he wrapped his arms around you and pulled you closer to himself.
You two decided to lay in his bed and read a little more of his book to which you fell asleep. As you woke up the next morning, you found your love sleeping next to you, his gentle snores gave you a feeling of comfort and coziness.
"How are you so perfect?", you softly mumbled under your breath and watched his beautiful face rest still in the dark. After a while, you decided to check for the time and were shocked to see you actually still had an hour left before you had to get up but since you couldn't fall back asleep again, you jumped out of bed, trying not to wake Terzo which wasn't really difficult as he slept like a stone.
You quietly opened the door and sneaked over the hallway, hoping you wouldn't wake anyone. As you reached your room, you sighed relieved and walked over to your closet to pick your outfit for the day. But as you watched all these feminine clothes hang in front of you, you frowned a little. You suddenly felt a little disappointed to see they weren't what Terzo's closet consisted off, male clothes. Something was off, you could feel it. You knew you had these moments from time to time where you felt like you weren't right in your body, like you didn't feel like the gender you were assigned to. Ever since you were a child you had these thoughts, you always refused to dress up very "girly" but you always thought you just had a different style. Your life long you managed to ignore what now seemed to be right in front of you. You didn't want this anymore. You didn't want to ever stand in front of feminine clothes again and think "this is what I have to wear because it's who I have to be". It's like something suddenly snapped inside of you and suddenly, you felt tears stream down your face. A part of these were tears of happiness, relieved to finally know what's up with you. But mostly, you were just desperate. You didn't know what to do, whether you could tell Terzo and how he'd react. Would the clergy kick you out if they knew? You quickly closed your closet, unable to bare the view any longer. With your hands wrapped around your body, holding onto these clothes you finally felt comfortable in, you slowly walked back to Terzo's room. Even though you still weren't sure whether to tell him yet, you knew his arms were the only place you wanted to be in at the moment. A moment later, you found yourself in front of your boyfriend's door, hastily trying to dry your still teary eyes before you entered, wishing for nothing more than his arms around you.
Since you had totally forgotten he had been asleep before you left, you closed the door and turned on the light switch, immediately regretting it and switching it back off. You were surprised as it was turned back on from the switch beside the bed. Terzo was already awake, sitting on his bed, rubbing his eyes.
"Morning, mia cara", he said with a sleepy smile.
That smile however, disappeared with an instant as he saw your red, puffy eyes.
"What happened?", he asked and jumped off his bed, hurrying over to you.
He wrapped his arms around you and stroked your hair gently, letting you know you'll be fine while you only cried in his shirt.
"I can't do this anymore", you mumble in his chest.
"What? What can't you do anymore?"
"I just can't live like this anymore", you cry and his eyes widen. Was it something he did? Would you be breaking up with him?
"Are you talking about us?", he asked worried and sighed relieved as you shook your head.
"Terzo.. I..", you began and slowly loosened the hug to look him in the eyes.
"I'm not a woman and I can't live trying to be one anymore", you finally managed to say and felt another wave of tears streaming down your face as your heart felt lighter from finally being able to say it. Still, you felt a tight knot in your chest, making your heart heavy as you waited for his reaction.
You stared to the ground, breathing heavily as you suddenly felt his soft, warm hands cup your cheeks and rub them softly. He slowly lifted your face to look at him as you saw a warm smile on his face before he pulled you into a tight hug.
"I love you, mi amore. I love you so much and whether you're the most beautiful woman or man in the whole wide universe won't change anything about that".
You gently sniffled in his shoulder as you hugged him back, letting his warmth and words comfort your slowly calming heart.
"Thank you so much! And I'm sorry", you begin and he interrupted the hug to look at you with confusion.
"I'm sorry I caught you by surprise this early in the morning"
"No no, amore! I am the one who should be apologising, I should have noticed you weren't comfortable in your own skin. I hope I never made you feel like you couldn't tell me what was going on, you know I will always support you"
"I mean.. I was worried at first but deep down I knew" you say with a smile and he gives you a soft kiss.
"So I suppose that means my beautiful boyfriend needs a new name, right?"
The two of you begin to search for cool names, possibly having a satanic meaning as you realised it was time for breakfast so Terzo lent you some of his clothes.

A/n: Here we have a different type of trans papa stories, let me know if you like these Papa x trans reader scenarios!