pre-debut heeseung confesses before he moves to seoul to participate in the trainee survival show, "I-LAND". you lost all contact with him.
what happens when you are forced to pretend like he is a stranger? would current love be your fate or would...
i looked over to sunghoon who was lost in his thoughts. i thought about what he had brought up earlier, and it all came back to me— how important our friendship was.
we shared so many struggles together especially during our trainee days.. and he was the only one that never tried to give me advice whenever i felt like shit. instead, he just listened. his presence alone was enough to reassure me that he would never leave.
not everyone is as lucky as me to get to debut in the same group as their good friend.. but in the midst of trying to get y/n to even glance at me after 7 years, i forgot that sunghoon is someone i didn't want to lose either.
we've been each others pillar of strength for the longest time, even after we debuted. i can't. i can't let another friendship go.
again.
...
but that means i have to let y/n go if i didn't want to lose my friendship with sunghoon.
and there it was again.. the same stupid feeling of confusion and not knowing what to do or how to navigate in my own mind. just what the fuck is making this so difficult for me?!
i'm so sick and so tired of not even knowing how i feel.
and as much as i keep trying to navigate through my own thoughts, i just get myself lost all over again. i don't know where to start, where to end, how to stop this! but all i know is i don't want to lose either of them...
it might be selfish of me.
but i can't lose y/n again.
7 years was too long. and i'm afraid i'm too late.
"i understand, hoon.. where you're coming from with this," i finally spoke as his head darted towards me.
"it's all just so confusing, you know," he sighed. and instantly, i felt like i knew what he meant.
for the first time in ages, i felt like i was finally talking to sunghoon properly.
i nodded as i chuckled to myself softly.
"i know."
and that's when i realised the time.
11:15am. my phone read.
fuck. i have someone to meet in gangnam! it completely slipped my mind.. we made this plan ages ago and now i'm running late.
"i.. i gotta go," i told sunghoon as he eyed me with confusion before i shoved my phone in the pockets of my sweats and headed straight to the dance studio. i grabbed a black hat and a black mask as i wore a plain white shirt and grey sweats.
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"good enough." i mumbled to myself as i covered up as much of my face and hair as i could. i'm not trying to get recognised today.. not with this fucking blue black on my eye.
