in my heart • transfer student

chapter 18

jaspers pov

2 months later : may 22nd

so me and soobin have been officially friends or " met " two months ago. It was crazy how fast it went by two months. I actually have something to confess. I might still be in love with him. Not love but, just a crush. But I'm not letting it get between our friendship, I'm trying my best too.

I wanted to do something this weekend since I'm gonna be home alone this weekend. Me and soobin planned a sleepover at my house, a sleepover. I'm planning what movies to watch on my pintrest board. I'm thinking pride and prejudice ( not the zombies one ) it's such a classic romance movie. I'm thinking also a late night run to the gas station to get some snacks!...

I'm still nervous having soobin over, I mean what if he thinks of me differently afterwards? Will he think I'm weird or not normal?.. I'm just going crazy, since it's the first time I'm having a friend over or even have a sleepover.

CHOI ❤️
hey what time am I supposed to come over?

me  
oh heyyy, anytime like in 30 minutes or so.

okay, will be there soon!

Okay now Choi was coming over a sleepover. I already got everything done and settled up for this. Now all I had to do was wait for him to come. It shouldn't take that long for him to come, maybe not, I don't know. I just scrolled on my phone and looked at our photos that were saved in our messages. Just smiling and looking back at everything we did together, not may be much but it's worth a lot to me. He's just so special to me. I sighed and laid on the couch thinking about him again. It's only been a month and I'm crushing on him like crazy. I just want to tell him someday, not right now but someday.

I heard a doorbell ring and I immediately got up from the couch and ran to the door. I opened the door to Choi with his bag and his pajamas on looking like he was in a rush. I forgot my words and just said welcome! He entered inside and landed on my couch.

" thanks for inviting me over for a sleepover! I always wanted to go to one." Choi said to me.

" sure no problem! It's my pleasure to host this, I'll sure to make this a good one! " I replied back.

We laid downed and chose one of the movies I picked out. We watched the princess diaries, one of my favorite movies. He looked really interested into the movie though. I kept staring at him, he looked back at me and I looked away. I was looking down and embarrassed. He didn't look like he noticed but then I accidentally, I actually don't know how but my arm slipped and I landed my head onto Choi's shoulder. It looked like I was sleeping on his arm. I was freaking out not knowing what to do.

Then he chuckled and put his head onto mine. I'm not, I was just shock in the moment. We look like a couple watching a movie. He didn't say anything and kept smiling. I wanted to scream but I couldn't do anything in that moment. We stayed like this for about a half a hour until he needed to go to the bathroom. When he left I covered my face in embarrassment. I actually couldn't believe that happened. I was trying to process everything going on.

He came back from the bathroom looking at me and chuckling. He laid back and relaxed his arm on the couch. Then slowly putting his hand on my arm. He smiled and he wrapped my arm around my head pulling me into his arm.

" hope this doesn't make you awkward, you look uncomfortable that's all haha." He said to me.

" it's fine! It's totally not awkward, we're basically like best friends.." I replied back

" oh didn't you wanna go to the gas station? To get some snacks?" He said to me.

" yeah let's go!" I replied back to him.

We got up and I quickly put on my shoes and head out the door and waiting for soobin to be done. He headed out the door and we both went on our way to the gas station. It was only a five walk but it was scarier in the night. We were walking now and I was scrolling on my phone to distract myself, soobin was looking around the places that we passed by. Suddenly while I was recording me walking, soobin grabbed my hand and was holding my hand and he chuckled and gave a smile and our hands back and forth. I got jittery with my hands, he was holding my hands. I was going through so many thoughts in my head.

We kept holding hands until we arrived at the gas station and then he ran to open the door for me, I was trying to hide my blush from soobin, he was looking at the chips and seeing which one he wanted to pick. I kept looking at him and taking pictures at him. He was just so, like you know?
I went and grabbed my snacks too, all I grabbed was some chips and a bucket of ice cream. He took a picture behind me while I was choosing which ice cream I wanted and I looked back and pretended that he didn't just do that.

We went outside with our snacks and it got cold all of a sudden, I was only wearing some shorts and oversized shirt. I was freezing and Choi looked at me and stopped me by grabbing my arm.

" here take my coat, it's getting cold out here." He said while he handed me his coat.

" thanks.." I said while I gave him a smile.

He smiled the whole way back and was getting near me alot. We arrived back at my house and we slumped in my couch and went back watching our movies.

We wanted to get some rest so I put down my blanket on the floor and Soobin put his next to me. I didn't mind that we were right next to each other. It didn't bother me at all too. But it still was shocking he was next to me. I tried my best to fall asleep and not just stare at him the whole time he was next to me. I fell asleep and then when I woke up I looked around without moving, apparently I don't know but somehow Choi was like cuddling with me. I wanted to freak out and scream. His hand was on mine, but I didn't wanted to end this, but I got up anyways. I was blushing so much. The fact we were cuddling... it was crazy to think about.