broken boy

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Amandas pov

The next day

I woke up and looked at the time and it was seven in the morning I looked at the date and it was the 26th of June meaning it was my birthday which I was kind of excited about but no one knew which im happy about because If they knew it's my birthday  they would probably want to celebrate but I don't want that so, for now, im just going to pretend its not my birthday and just do what I do normally so I got up and got ready for the day then went downstairs to get some food when I saw sam and my dad talking in the loungeroom so I went into the kitchen and got some toast and made some tea and then sat down on the bench and watched some tiktok when someone came and sat down next to me so I looked at who it was and it was sam and my dad

"Hey," I said,

"hey why didn't you sit with us?" Dad asked

"Oh it looked like you were talking about something important and I wanted to just sit alone and eat,"  I said

"Oh ok what are you watching?" he asked

"Just some edits that people have made about you and Sam," I said

"Oh cool If you find any cool ones send them to me and I'll post them to my insta," he said

"OK," I said

"Hey Amanda?" Sam said

"Ya?" I said

"We were wondering if  you wanted to go to a hunted place with us tonight," he said

"Umm, sure were too?" I asked 

"That's a surprise," my dad said

"Umm ok well im going to watch a movie in my room so don't bother me because it's a horror movie," I  said

"Oooo what movie?" Sam asked

"The conjuring number 2," I said

"oo nice enjoy," Dad said

I nodded and went upstairs turned on the movie and pulled out my pregnancy book

dear baby brock 

im now six weeks and everything has been good I haven't been throwing up that much which is good but I would be lying if I said I haven't had my doubts about having you Sure I can't wait to meet you and see how cute you are and find out what your gender is but I just don't know whether I can do this like I know I have so many people who will help me look after you but I don't know whether I can do the birth part and the breastfeeding and the sore boobs and back and legs and everything that comes with pregnancy but everyone keeps telling me im going to be fine im going to get through this but im scared that im going to hurt you with how much I pass out or im going to get hurt and then hurt you 

im going out with your grandpa and Uncle Sam to explore a haunted place but I have no idea what place we are going to because they say it is a secret but oh well we will see and I hope it's safe and not too scary like the queen mary or something because I heard  that has opened up but im not sure if they will go there because of there memories from that place but oh well what else can I expect I have no idea but ill see tonight I can't wait I have always dreamed of getting out of my toxic life and meeting them and going to haunted places with them because it seemed so fun and I get to do that I meet them Colby adopted me meaning I got out of my toxic life kinda and now  im going exploring with them it's like all of my  dreams are coming true

Anyway, im going to go im watching To Conjuring right now so im going to pay attention to that now because it's getting into the good scenes ya I can't wait to meet you I love you so much and I'll keep you updated I added my bump photo and your the size of a lentil still so small