bleeding hearts | jenlisa g!p

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Lisa just released her 3rd album after a 6 months hiatus. In the manner of 24 hours, her song 'Lost you' was trending worldwide.
Her fans absolutely loved it, because in this song Lisa showed a new side to her.

It wasn't just rapping along to some beats, although those were her best songs, this song in particular was just something else.She rarely wrote and composed her own songs, because her producement never let her meddle in that.

But this time, Lisa was determined to have at least one song that she wrote on her new album.

Her boss had doubts that it will do well, but the constant nagging drove him crazy, so he decided to just go with it.

And that perhaps, was the best decision he could've made.

It was trending almost on every social media, fans were recording tiktoks to it, it got over 500 million streams on spotify, and her name was all over twitter, anyone who had social media must have heard about it by now.

Lisa was pleased and grateful for the way people appreciated her own song. She never really got recognition for something she wrote, only at the beginning of her career, when she was an amateur, back then Lisa didn't have her hands tied and she could release whatever she wanted. Anyway, she thanked her boss for giving her a chance. Maybe this guy wasn't so bad after all.

The original plan was to shoot a music video for one of the other songs, the one called 'Money' but when YG saw how much impact Lisa's song made, he changed his mind and told the crew to shoot for 'Lost you' even though the song wasn't so upbeat, it was rather slow and it had a sad tone, but if that's what the world wanted from Lisa, they should give it to them.

3 days of shooting the MV, and it was all done.
The whole crew including Lisa clapped in excitement and told Lisa she did a great job.
If Lisa was honest, she felt joy for the first time in 4 years, it's like suddenly she was being appreciated, and it had made the pain in her reduce a little.

But Lisa's old habits, never went away. She'd secretly buy bottles of alcohol and stored them in her closet underneath her clothes, so her managers wouldn't find it. When she tried to stay sober for one day, she couldn't get any sleep. And when she did fall asleep, she had nightmares and sleep paralysis. She had headaches during the day and she lost all her appetite. Her hands were trembling, along with her whole body. She even heard voices that weren't there. It scared her how much her addiction affected her life. But she wouldn't stop, she needed her sleep and energy for the promotions and the upcoming world tour, she didn't want to dissapoint her fans.

And that's where the issue with her boss's solution to all this came in. He had paid for the treatment Lisa didn't want. It made Lisa anxious about how she's going to 'recover' when all she needed was to not recover. She needed it more than the oxygen she breathed.
Lisa was even willing to give up her sex life just to have a few drinks or a magic pill during the day.

Because if she didn't, the world along with her fans would see her in the worst state possible.
She read a few articles about the treatments and process of recovering from alcoholism.
And it scared her, it was frightening to realize how bad it was. She came to a realization from her experiences that the state she was in was called 'Chronic Alcoholism' and it certainly wasn't easy to get out of it.

So she made a pact with herself that after the world tour, she will stop drinking. But not now, not when the opportunity of a lifetime came in view, she couldn't risk ruining it all.

After one week of promotions and photoshoots, Lisa was soon to be performing at her first concert in New York. But before that, her boss called her about the meeting of her new counselor, or what she liked to call - a shrink.