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78: price of her love

Yn's pov:
1 and half month later
It's been almost 2 months taehyung went and just like he said time flys away but not for me. I was having problem to pass each passing second.

I started getting nightmare again and it wasn't about my past but my present. It was horrified. I couldn't dare to sleep at night. But my body still need rest I knew it so I used set alarm after each hour at night and just like that I used to complete my sleep.

Because if I got panick attacks I don't know if i could control myself. Grandmother's words were ringing in my mind, it was making me depressed. After that day they didn't contact me but Jennie used to threaten me sometimes and it would leave great impact on my messed up state.

I didn't tell this to taehyung either he was too much busy and used to be to much tired. He would call me at night before going to bed but most of the time he used to sleep after talking for five minutes due to tiredness and i would just look at the screen until I myself drift in sleep. I don't want to stress him more.

That was the only time I felt peace to me otherwise whole time I felt horrible, I was overworking myself but It didn't turn out good way either.

I was getting so much tired this days. I felt like throwing up. I almost stopped 3 myself from fainting. I know it must be because of my overthinking and extra work. I wasn't taking care of myself I dont have energy to. I felt like crying I had broke downs at late nights because of it.

And nowadays my frustrations level is on its peak. I felt annoyed about everything, even about myself for being overthinker and weak. I was feeling irritated to my sick self. Getting panick attacks again. How many days this is gonna happen? Can't I get some peace to my mind?

Each word from grandmother was ringing in my mind, I started hearing those voices again which I used to hear before. I was just waiting for this 1 month to end and I will meet him. That will only calm me down.

I wasn't emotional freak before not even when that thing happened to me but now I was acting like one. I didn't knew what was happening to me why I was getting more sensitive and emotional. I wasn't liking it at all. Just 2 month he left and what happened to me. How pathetic i was feeling about myself only I know.

I think of going to Busan away from this until he comes. I'm gonna tell him this today. Only it will help me or watching Jennie around me always remind me of the day grandmother said me to leave him. I was scared.

No! I'm scared because he is the only one I have and I don't wanna loose him. I'm sucker of comfort, love and he is the only person from whom I get that. Is it too much to ask for?

My thoughts got broke by the phone ringing. It was face time from taehyung. I pick up the call.

Author's pov:

"Hey bub! Watcha doing?" Taehyung chirp with tired smile making yn smile back.

"Nothing just laying on bed, just woke up. You?" Yn answered.

" had my dinner and about to sleep." he replied. When yn remember about informing him about busan.

"Tae I wanna ask you something." Yn voice out making taehyung look at her.

"What is it bub?"

"I wanna go to Busan, can I?" Yn ask biting her lips where taehyung frown at sudden words.

"Why so sudden princess?" He ask with raised eyebrows making yn sigh. She can't tell him truth.

"Just I want to I'm getting bored here" yn lied ignoring the suspicious eyes she got from him.

"Then go hangout with your frds here. Don't go there." tae voice out and shrugged.

"Are you perhaps mocking me for not having frds?" Yn ask with sight annoyance making Tae's eyes widened.