𝙈𝙊𝙑𝙄𝙉𝙂 𝙊𝙉 | 𝙠.𝙗𝙖𝙠𝙪𝙜𝙤

𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙨

Once you arrived back to your empty apartment, a wave of sadness washes over you. The tears you held back at the restaurant all came flowing out after fishing a black box from your drawers. You did nothing but held the closed box to your chest, still too scared to open it and face your past.

Although you say it's okay and put up a front for everyone else, Shinso and Camie knew out of everyone that it was all a lie — what mother can forget the death of their own child?

author note:
T/W‼️ miscarriage, child loss, self harm ‼️

The sound of machines beeping wake you up to a harsh light from the ceiling.

"Y/N!" Camie and Shinso simultaneously run to your side with fear in their eyes but you couldn't fully focus because without them saying a word, you knew.

You knew what they were going to say.

You can feel it.

"my baby.." you softly whisper in agony while clutching the flat empty belly, "Camie, Shinso.. where's my baby?" You ask already knowing the answer but you refuse to believe it.

Camie bites her bottom lip averting her gaze from your desperation but continues to hold your hand. Shinso takes a deep sigh and holds the other hand, rubbing the outside with his thumb in an attempt to calm you down.

"I'm sorry y/n.. He didn't make it.." the only words he could say.

You shake your head in denial

"Where's my baby, let me see him, I was 5 months pregnant where is he!?" You yell clutching Shinso's shirt and shaking him vigorously but he remained silent.

The whole room was filled with your wails that carried anger and mourning.

***

You stared blankly at the white hospital walls, not even knowing how to truly really feel. It's as if you've cried out all your tears and you're left with a numbing sensation. It's been a week since you gave birth and instead of looking and holding your precious baby, one that you've grown inside you for the past few months, you only had a hospital blanket where the small fruit of your labour was supposed to be wrapped in.

Shinso and Camie were on either side of the bed as the door of the room slides open.

"YOU'VE GOT SOME FUCKING NERVE!" Camie starts hitting Inasa in the chest as Shinso attempts to hold her back but you just ignore it.

"Camie chill! I'm her fiancé and the father of our child, I have the right to see her" He shouts back sitting next to your bed as he grabs your hand in his, "honey are you okay?"

Without a second thought you slap him across the face, not caring if his parents are stood behind him as the silent tears you thought you've cried out, falls down your cheeks.

"Our baby is dead. How do you think I feel?" Your voice was blunt and sharp, sending daggers through Inasa's heart

"I know and I'm sorry" he kisses your hand as he begins to cry but you yank your hand back. The mere thought of this man touching you sends a wave of disgust, anger and betrayal throughout your body.

"If you were sorry you wouldn't have cheated, you wouldn't have gotten another woman pregnant, Inasa.. how.. how could you do this to me? To us!? How could you throw away our future! How could you kill our baby" your breath hitches as reality slaps you once more in the face. A small lump begins to build in your throat as your voice fights to break through it, only to sound weak and small, "my baby"