𝙈𝙊𝙑𝙄𝙉𝙂 𝙊𝙉 | 𝙠.𝙗𝙖𝙠𝙪𝙜𝙤

𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙛𝙚𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨

Bakugo went back to the kitchen where Shinso and Sero finally joined.

"Where's y/n?" Shinso asks while stuffing his face with warm pastries

"She went out for a smoke earlier, Bakugo did you see her?" Camie looks at the distant minded hero

"Huh? Yeah, she went back to the room to rest. She said she was still tired" He pulled up a chair to sit back down next to Kirishima — 'It's been thirty minutes since y/n went upstairs to rest but knowing her she'd probably be in bed crying. Fuck! I hate that bald headed bitch'

Once again Kirishima notices his friend go quiet "Bakubro you okay?"

"Yeah" he replied short and sweet, "I'm just gonna go check up on her"

***

The door creaks open as you hurriedly wipe your tears and cover your face under the duvet. Bakugo sighs at the obvious cover up, 'I knew it' he thought to himself.

The sound of his feet walking closer to you seemingly echoes through the quiet room, "Hey wife" Bakugo's voice was gentle as the mattress sinks with his weight, "there's no use hiding from me" — you hate that he was right.

He was sitting on his side of the bed as he carefully pulls the cover away to see your puffy eyes. He sighs once more as he lies down beside you and wipes the last tear that fell from your eyes.

"Katsuki.." your voice was small and weak

"Shh" he whispered as he pulls you closer to him, his body heat surrounding you, "you don't have to say anything, I'm here now" the words of comfort that you were foreign too caused you to bawl out crying in his arms. He stroked your hair to calm you down as he softly shushes you.

There you stayed in the arms of the man you love, grieving the man you once loved.

***

"Hey wife" Bakugo calls out to you as you hum into his chest, "about last night.." your ears perk up as you pull away slightly and look up at him, not caring about your puffy eyes.

"Y-yeah?" feeling slightly hopeful, this was the conversation you wanted with him.

"I.. I'm sorry" those two words were enough to make your heart fall into the pit of your stomach, "I was drunk and I know it was a dick move to take advantage of you like that"

You couldn't help but fully pull away to sit up on the edge of your bed and turn your back on him. The words you were afraid to hear, the words 'I'm sorry'

"It's fine. It was just a mistake right?" You clear your throat, "I better go downstairs, I've been gone for a while"

"y/n-" you didn't want to hear what else he was going to say. Instead you bolted as quick as you could out of the room.

"Oh y/n you're awake!" Everyone was gathered in the living room playing cards to kill time.

"Yep" you force a smile as you walk past and go straight to the kitchen fridge filled with alcohol. You scan your choice of poison, "fuck it" you whisper under your breath while grabbing the barely touched bottle of Balkan Vodka.

"Well, well look who's awake" Shinso enters the kitchen to do nothing but what he does best, annoy you. His mischievous smile drops as he eyes the bottle in your hand, "y/n?"

"You coming with me or are you just going to just stare?" 

Shinso was silent as he joins his clearly troubled friend by the lake, watching as she drinks straight vodka. He couldn't help but grimace slightly knowing the vodka is 88% alcohol and it was what left Kaminari drunk after one shot.

'I'm sorry for your loss'

'I'm sorry for cheating, please let's work this out'

'I'm sorry, I was drunk and I kissed you'

'The two words I hate in this world is 'I'm sorry' I'm so sick of people saying sorry to me because it changes nothing, they've already done it. But this time.. I thought it was different.. I thought.. '

You couldn't help but laugh which worried Shinso even more — it's been a while since he's seen you like this.

'I thought you cared Katsuki..'

"Hey crazy lady" Shinso spat out, "are you okay? What happened??"

You laugh once more seeing the look on his face, it was the same look he gave everytime you did something out of the ordinary, the look of worry and pity in his eyes.

"I'm great Toshi!" You smile as the alcohol finally flowed through your system, "in fact.." pushing yourself off the ground to stand as Shinso braces himself to catch you, "I'm fucking fantastic!" Yelling out to the lake with your full chest. You pant attempting to catch your breath as a small weight disappears, "Don't you ever want to just yell?" Looking at your friend, "Shit! when was the last time I yelled like this? It feels so good!" Chuckling at yourself as you attempt to grab another sip of the bottle only for Shinso to pull it away.

"You've had enough" the usually annoying and mischievous man turned stern and serious, a side of him you hadn't seen since your break up with Inasa.

"Ooh~ I'm so scared" speaking a sarcastic tone which only angered Shinso more.

"y/n" your attention moves away from Shinso onto Bakugo who gave you those same eyes.

"Katsuki!! Hii!!" Waving at him absolutely wasted

"Look, I don't know what the fuck happened between you two but we can't let Camie see her like this" Shinso had a brief flashback of trying to comfort both Camie and himself during y/n's last suicide attempt, "the question is if you're going to help or not"

"I will"

"Here's the plan; I'm going to use my quirk to command her to go into her room and once she's in you can break my quirk and take care of her while I make sure everyone doesn't notice" he begins to command the hard headed hero as he nods in agreement.

***

Everything went according to plan as Bakugo and Shinso managed to safely bring you back into your room.

"y/n?" Bakugo shakes you slightly breaking the hold of Shinso's quirk. You couldn't help but giggle seeing him act like he cared, "shit I'm so sorry, this is all my fault" he pulls you into a hug holding you tight.

"Stop saying that" he pulls away slightly looking at your pink tinted cheeks, "stop saying you're sorry. I'm sick of sorry's. You didn't take advantage of me stupid, I told you to kiss me and I gave you consent." Your hand holds his cold cheek as you look into his crimson eyes before moving your gaze down to those soft lips, "I.. wanted to kiss you"

Bakugo gulps seeing how close you were getting to him, "y-you're drunk, you don't know what you're saying-"

"I know that I love you"

"W-what did you say?" Bakugo's heart was pounding so loud against his chest that he wasn't sure if he heard that right.

"I know that I love you, Katsuki Bakugo"

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author note: double update/ long chapter to keep ya'll going 🤗