It's been 5 months, we've been talking for 5 months straight. Past me would have never expected this. I have also met him 2 times already, I'm thankful for those moments, I was truly happy! When I felt down, he would always chat with me, making jokes, and my day would be much better.
We were so close, I knew everything that happened in his day, I knew about the things he was interested in and his real personality. I really thought he liked me back, I don't even know that until now. But it was 5 months straight, I'm guessing he got fed up.
But what about me? Even if I cried about him countless times, even if I overthought so much, I stayed. Because I truly cared about him, and I thought he would give me what I never received. He even asked me what present I want for my birthday, but it looks like it's not even going to come true.
After 5 months straight of communication, his chats suddenly got shorter. He would always leave me on read, he rarely replies now. When he does, his replies have no energy, it's like he's forcing himself to talk to me. Today is the first day we stop talking, I am feeling that he's not interested anymore, and I understand.
So I'm deciding to let go of him now, it was nice while it lasted. I don't regret the time I spent with him, he truly made me happy. He's the only person who has ever treated me that way, and so I will always remember him.
I know I'm not a big part of his past despite those 5 months, I can clearly see he doesn't care anymore. It's crazy how people change so quick, don't you think so? I thought my story here was already going to end, but no, I got hurt once again.
I don't think he's coming back, if he ever does, it's not going to be the same again. My feelings are fading, once my feelings fully disappear, it's not going to come back again. So I guess this is our goodbye. We might have little conversations in the future, but I won't feel anything anymore.
This is the last time I will fall in love and pursue someone. I have had too much lessons, love really isn't for me, I give up, really.
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RomanceA high school student who falls in love with such unique people, people who hurt her over and over again. She falls in love with everyone who gives her attention, it's not a good thing to her, it's a problem she wishes she could get rid of. (UNFINIS...
