NO LUCK WITH LOVE

Coincidence

Oh hello, months passed already and so many things has happened! One, Jairo no longer has a girlfriend, they broke up for some private reasons. I was happy because ofcourse I liked him, but I never wished for them to break up, I'm not that type of person.

After so many things happened, I added his alt account on my alt account too. My friend Ces did the same, he accepted both of us! I screamed with joy, Ofcourse I'd be happy!

Ces messaged him since she was selling something and tried to get more customers. They had a small convo, the next day, when I was walking with ces in the hallways, Jairo out of nowhere, randomly said "Hi ces" to ces. We both laughed so hard, that was so random?? He'd normally avoid both of us.

Ces and Jairo started having long conversations, he also shared his problems and secrets to her. Oh but do not worry, Ces would never like Jairo! He is not her type, and she'd never betray her friend.

Since Jairo was comfortable talking to Ces now, he told her his crush.

His crush.
His crush.
His crush.

Oh.

They just broke up.. he already has a crush? He didn't even give me a chance..

I chatted him, knowing he likes someone else. I feel like he knows I like him, and that is why he's uncomfortable around me. He doesn't seem interested in talking to me, he won't make our conversation longer and would leave me as the last chat.

I understand everything now, he will never be comfortable around me and I have to accept that. One thing tho, he finally agreed to have a pic with me, we'll take a picture on December 16, my Christmas party.

I decided that I will confess that day, I wrote him a long letter about everything I felt. I already know it's rejection, so I have to say it all for me to be able to move on. It hurts but I can't do anything, you cannot force love.

I still feel a heavy feeling in my heart, I don't want to let go of him, I've loved him for 4 months and I have been attached, even if I didn't even know him that much.

Goodluck to me.