the way i loved you

looking for the right words

A/N: i was too tired last night to finish these, but apparently i learnt how to write paragraphs properly, so that's good ig :)

Liam had been talking with, more like forced to talk to his pack, as they caught him up on everything that's happened in the past three days.

Nothing had really happened, but Liam wasn't exactly surprised. He knew that Scott wouldn't want to do anything, until he was at least somewhat convinced he would be okay.

It was obvious Scott had a plan already.

Since Scott would never go into a battle without a plan, because that's how people die, he knew they were planning something.

Except Scott wouldn't let him help, he'd asked Melissa, but she'd also rejected his request. He didn't understand what the big deal was, he felt perfectly fine.

Liam still wasn't over last night though.

He'd near enough spilt his guts to Theo, before Meliss had interrupted them. It was clear Theo already knew about him and Hikari, but he decided to cross that bridge when they get to it.

So much had happened just in the last 24 hours, and Liam didn't know what to make of it, or what any of it even ment.

Everything was so confusing.

Theo was confusing.

It was as if Theo was the last piece to his puzzle, but the puzzle piece was missing.

Just like Theo.

The puzzle was incomplete, it had been abandoned.

He pushed his thoughts aside, as Stiles called his name.

"So.. Liam, if you woke up last night, why are we only seeing you this morning?"

He hated Stiles and his stupid questions.

He didn't have to answer to him.

He hadn't done anything wrong.

"Um.." he murmured.

If he hadn't done anything wrong, why was it so hard to think of something, anything?

"I..um."

What was he supposed to tell them?

Was he suppose to tell them that he only wanted Theo there, that even after all these years, Theo's company was the only one he truly enjoyed?

How could he tell them that?

He couldn't.

Stiles had sounded so contradictive and patronising at the same time, it was off putting.

"He was just tired Stiles, he probably didn't even know what was going on. Liam barely had the energy to even talk to me," Theo spoke, covering for him.

Stiles just glared in his direction.

"Don't take it to heart," Theo added.

Liam turned to Theo, mouthing him a subtle 'thank you'.

"I wouldn't have talked to you either, Theo. You're not exactly exciting, plus why would I even believe you, you're a liar," Stiles responded, harshly.

Liam couldn't stand the fact, that even after all these years, Stiles still couldn't trust Theo.

It was exhausting.

Theo would act like he didn't care, but Liam knew that he secretly did. Stiles would get under his skin, with all his hurtful words. All Theo ever wanted was for them to trust him, to have a place where he truly belonged.