Anti-Hero | I-Land & Enhypen

-Talking to the Moon-

March 29, 2023, Seoul, South Korea

"Want to share this chicken?" Jungwon asked me. "Sure, let's eat on the balcony." I said. "What do you think we're doing for the comeback?" Jungwon asked me. "I don't know. I hope we can do something sexy though." I said. "Really? You want to impress me?" Jungwon teased. "The world does not revolve around you. But seriously, I heard a lot of fans want that concept for us next."

"But we're vampires we're always sexy." Jungwon laughed. "You sure? I don't think we seemed sexy in Hey Tayo." I said laughing and he laughed with me. "That was just a song for a kids show. How could you think that one would be sexy." Jungwon continued laughing. "Well, you weren't sexy during 10 months either." I remembered him.

"Well, that was our cute concept." Jungwon told me. "You see, we're not always sexy. The last single we promoted was Paradoxxx and that wasn't necessarily sexy." I told him. "I guess you're right, engene is pretty starved aren't they?" Jungwon said. "Yep."

"Wait, where did you bought this chicken? It's so good." I asked him. "You know the restaurant near the company?" Jungwon said. "Oh yeah, you bought it there?" "Yeah, but in another one of their establishments." "Oh, is the recipe different according from where you buy it?" "Not the recipe, but that one is the original place, so the seasoning might be different." "Well, it's delicious, thank you."

"How do you think that the members will take the news of us dating." He asked me. "I don't think they won't like it. The thing is I'm scared of them telling us that it'd be better to stop it." I said. "What do you mean?" Jungwon tilted his head in confusion.

"You know how they are always shipping us and doing that kind of stuff." "Yeah." "One time after a live, it was probably 02z talking, I don't remember. Someone was asking about how they had teased us during the live, saying that engene might not like it, and Jay said that it didn't matter as long as it was not real."

"Okay, I get what you're saying, but at the same time, I'm not." "You see, they support us as long as we're not real. And maybe they would support us if we were real, but for our own safety tell us to break up, you know? In the end it'd be a secret they now have to keep too." I finished explaining, and it seemed like Jungwon took sometime to process it.

"I had never thought of it that way. Because if for example Iseul and Niki came up to me to tell me they're in love I wouldn't mind, but I would be continuously scared for them to be caught." Jungwon said. "Yeah, that's why I'm scared of telling them. I might burden them, and I've been burdening the group for a long time. Don't want to continue."

"You're not a burden for us." Jungwon took my hand and used the other one to make me look at him. "Look Jungwon, that's just something you're morally obliged to tell me, but you do not mean it." "I do mean it. We don't find you as a burden. You don't know the amount of conversations we had during the time you wouldn't talk to us." "You see you were worried, if I didn't burdened you you would not be worried."

"Hayi, we are all part of this big family. Look not to offend you, but maybe you didn't have the standard family in which if you're doing bad, you're family will always worry for you, no matter how small the problem is, the thing is they'd never see you as the problem." "It's not just you, I've been the problem my whole life." I said deadpanning at him. "Tell me one example." He said. "I could give you the whole list though."

"Stop it, please." Jungwon said. "I'll stop, but you can't pretend this is not true, just because your my boyfriend." "It's not just because you're my girlfriend, no one sees you that way and you keep on labeling yourself as a problem or a burden."

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Long night short, Jungwon was unsuccessful trying to make Hayley realize. They fought about it for a good 30 minutes until they realized it was no use. None of them would change their opinions.

"I didn't know we could talk about all of this, even if we know everything about each other." Jungwon said. The sun started to rise. "I mean, I guess that's what couples do." I looked at him and when we were going to kiss we heard footsteps so immediately pulled apart.

"Hi, guys! Beautiful morning don't you think?" Sunoo said passive-aggressively, sitting in between us. We were on the balcony's bench, which was quite small, so it just made me fall off of it.

"Ouch! Damn, Sunoo. What the actual fuck?" I said laying on the ground. "Oh my God! Are you okay?" Jungwon asked me as he helped me up. "Yes, I'm fine. What was that Sunoo?" I asked surprised by the situation. "You know, no one likes them people who pretend." Sunoo said, standing up and walking away sassily. "Well, damn." Jungwon said following Sunoo with his gaze.

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Jungwon and I decided to go to the company. We weren't feeling that tired no matter how sleep deprived we were. Also the atmosphere in the house was weird. Sunoo kept staring at us weirdly.

We entered the practice room, and started to play some music. "Should we do a live?" Jungwon asked. "Yes, let's do one." I said and we sat down against the wall and we used a chair to hold the phone for us.

"Hi Engene! How are you doing." We asked Engene and immediately the comments were full of shippers. "If you breathe you guys are dating." We read a comment and the flipped our heads to look at each other.

We widened our eyes, but knew what we had to do. So we turned to look to the camera and held our breaths. We did that for around 20 seconds when we couldn't anymore, so we laughed it off instead.

"I couldn't hold it anymore, I could feel myself getting purple." I said and Jungwon laughed at me.

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"Bye Engene!" We said and turned off the live. Ria was now with us, because apparently we needed a staff supervision. "I know you guys are dating." Ria said simply without even looking at us.

We laughed awkwardly while looking at each other worriedly. "Where did you even got-" Jungwon tried to say, but she cut him off. "If you don't want for your little stupid secret to be known, you must break up. Jungwon we're dating now." "The fuck??" I jealously asked.

I knew for a fact Jungwon wasn't going to accept that deal, but the girl had been getting on my nerves for a good time now. "You're not going to do that." I said. "Look Hayley, if you don't let your pretty boyfriend go with me now, I will personally tell Dispatch you guys are together."

"Who do you think you are? Italian Mafia boss?" I said. Rage going through my veins. "Whatever let them know." Jungwon said as he grabbed my hand and ran through the whole Hybe building looking for an elevator.

"What if she does something?" I said panting now that we were inside the elevator. "She won't. If in reality she cares for me, she won't." Jungwon said. "But she doesn't care about me, saying I'm dating whoever, and that's it. I'm done." I said. "Oh... I actually didn't thought in the possibility of discarding me and just saying you're dating. Don't worry you'll be fine, you already dated someone before."

I deadpanned him. "How did that went?" I said and he scratched the back of his nape, trying to think for a solution. "Also, where do you see a 4th gen idol dating twice? Or even once." I started to get really stressed. We went out of the building and went straight to our dorm.

Now we were really tired, so we just let ourselves fall in the sofa and quickly fell asleep.