Anti-Hero | I-Land & Enhypen

-Tear Jerker-

February 11, 2022, Seoul, South Korea

A couple hours after all that shit show, I asked my manager to take me to my mom's. So we went back home. I had already called them beforehand, so Jiyoung who doesn't live there anymore rushed to the house.

I entered and my mom wasn't at home, as she was buying some baby food for me to eat while I was there. Injae wasn't home yet. Hyunjae and Jiyoung were in the sofa when I entered. Immediately ran to me so I didn't fall as I was still being helped by Taeho to walk.

We sat down side to side with me in the middle. Taeho excused himself, leaving us sitting awkwardly without even looking at each other in the loudest silence I've been yet. "What did I told you?" Jiyoung asked. "To take care." I said, but it came out as a whisper. Tears threatening to fall.

"What did you do?" Hyunjae asked this time. I breathed and silently sobbed a couple of times. "I did not." I said as stable as I could, but again whispers were the only thing to come out. "Hayley... what the fuck?" Jiyoung asked madly.

"Look Jiyoung, I'm not in the mood for someone else to scold me I've had enough with Heeseung, Jay, the rest of the members, the company was so mad. I know everyone is doing this because they care about me, but I just... I just need someone to stop blaming it on me, and ask me if I'm okay. Help me to find solutions, not just reminiscing in what has happened before." I said with a couple of sobs in between words.

Hyunjae hugged me tightly. I reciprocated the hug and later Jiyoung was hugging us too. My mom entered the room left the bags on the floor and joined the hugs. "I want to tell all of you, that if I was really dry with you most of the time it's not because I don't love you. Maybe this is all my fault. I never taught any of you how to love, receive love, or maybe I wasn't really paying attention to y'all, that you just didn't know how to take stuff properly. I'm so sorry." My mom said crying too.

"I'm sorry that I shut you all guys off when I was discovering my sexuality. I didn't mean to do so, but I was really scared, I should've let you guys help me, and give me the love you gave me when I came out. But you guys never gave me your backs, all of you were super supportive of me, and deep down I always knew you were going to take me however the hell I was or with whoever the fuck I loved. I'm sorry." Hyunjae said.

"I'm sorry for never trusting any of you my problems. Everyone else had something going on. Hayley with Cole, mom with Carlos, Hyunjae with being bi, me with my depression. I just didn't wanted to vent out on y'all because we were all going through something, none of us deserved to be concerned about each other's problems, but honestly we needed it. And I'm not going to blame you mom, but we weren't really raised to share our problems, so that's why all of us shut up. And Hayley you didn't shut up bout Cole I would've appreciated you wouldn't had shut up about the hate and your eating disorders." Jiyoung said.

"I'm sorry, I swear, every time I hide something from you, I don't do it with the idea of hurting you guys, nor me, even if it mostly backfires, but I just don't want y'all to be worried about me. We all have problems, so this just makes me want to suck it up, and deal with it myself, after all I'm not always going to have you looking out for me." I said

"I love y'all I'll always try to be there for you guys. Nevertheless, mom you support yourself on Juyeon, Injae and me, we're your closest family after all. Jiyoung I've met your friends and they're always there for you, your boyfriend too. As for you Hayley, you have the most stable relationships and the closest to a family. Don't let that waste. Talk to them. Share your thoughts. Ask for help." Hyunjae said.

"I agree. You have all of them, and y'all seem pretty close, talk to them." Jiyoung said. "I was recently on a fight with all of them." I said. "How long did it last?" Hyunjae asked. "A couple months." I said. "Oh my God! What happened?" He asked.

"I got mad at Jungwon because he kept on questioning about everything ever since I started the drama. I mean he wasn't wrong to be worried, but I thought I could take care of myself and suddenly, when I realized I needed help months had already happened and I was like this." I said.

"How was it first with Jungwon and then suddenly the rest?" Jiyoung asked. "I guess I just kind of distanced myself from everyone." I said. "You see? I didn't taught you how to react to people caring for you, because I never really cared about you guys openly. You know everything I do, I do it for you, but I think I should've been more present in your lives. I'm sorry." My mom said and we hugged her again.

"Mom we don't blame you, you're a busy woman, and ever since you got rid of the other man you've been more than nice with us, don't you ever doubt we care for you. You're amazing mom." I said, and she teared up once again.

Eventually we were all crying. The afternoon was full with more crying apologies, and heartfelt conversations.

a/n
a shorter chapter, in which i wanted to dig deeper on hayley's family. i don't think any other fic i've read really explores on the oc's family, i'm glad i could've do so. i just want to tell y'all i'm super excited because i'm seeing enha in like two days (depends when you're reading this). i'm probably going to cry, prey for my sanity. anygays, i hope you all are well and liked this chapter, don't forget to vote and comment. love you guys! byeeeee! <33333333