[Lan Wangji's Point of View]
The tears hidden by the moonlight are that pain for me?
Can our love come true this way? When there's only danger in this love?
The person I've never even looked at once now is trapped in my eyes. You're passing by, in all those missed opportunities.
Wei Ying had his seizure again. It's been going for a week... frequently. The last time we were happy, was when we were watching the fireworks.
His body already betraying him. His heart failing him. Even his cancer won't allow him a peaceful night.
I could only watch from outside, hug our son tightly. He won't allow me inside. Allow me to be with him. He wants to push me away. Away from him!
I can't... I can't... I need him... I need to be with him.
"Wangji."
"What should I do?" I asked my father, he'll support me, give me advice... I need it... I need his advice...
I am breaking apart.
In the frozen memories, I ask once more.
Will we be able to smile someday? The closer I got, the more it hurts for you But you're my only love... You're another me... Can we, this way? Let me be with you...
Burying my face on my palm, 'to all the gods who could hear me... Please... Please... Not now... Not yet...'
The person I've never even looked at once now is trapped in my eyes breaking—crying.
His passing by... Can we turn back time? Can we go back?
Will we be able to smile someday? The closer I got, the more it hurts for you. But you're my only love... You're another me. Can we, this way?
Each day without you... My breath tangles with yours... And becomes heart-wrenching tears...
"Be ready Wangji..."
"NO!" I shouted in despair, "NOT NOW! I AM NOT READY YET!!! NOT NOW... NOT NOW... I'M STILL HAPPY... WE'RE STILL HAPPY... NOT NOW..."
Why can't they say the things I wanted to hear most? Why can't they understand?
Wen Qing, "Wangji..." Her voice pleading me, "I am sorry..."
We heard a loud crash inside the hospital room.
I wanted to rush inside, but my father stopped me. My son clinging to my brother crying.
I could only watch from afar, listen to Wei Ying's mournful cries...
"PLEASE! I BEG YOU! LET ME LIVE!" His pleas pierced my heart, "TEN YEARS? FIVE YEARS? NO!!! A YEAR! PLEASE LET ME LIVE ANOTHER YEAR!!! A YEAR WILL DO! PLEASE HELP ME LIVE!"
He struggled, he wanted to kowtow.
My Wei Ying...
He wants to live.
"A-QING... PLEASE... PRESCRIBE ME MEDICINE... SURGERY... OPEN ME UP! PLEASE, I BEG YOU... LET ME LIVE LONGER!" I can see him clinging to his mother, begging, crying, "I STILL WANT TO BE WITH THEM... I AM STILL HAPPY... A YEAR... A YEAR WILL DO... PLEASE..."
"I want to raise my child... I still want to be by my Lan Zhan's side..."
His Wei Ying imprisoned his treasure with his love.
"I have to live... I don't care if you increase my dosage... I don't care if I have to undergo surgery... I don't care if it's just another year... I JUST WANT TO LIVE!! I WANT TO BE WITH LAN ZHAN'S SIDE! I HAVE TO BE WITH HIM! WITH MY SON!"
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One Year Time Bomb
FanficLan Wangji has to spend a year with a troublemaker, falls in love, is hurt for love, and hurts the love of his life. After breaking that person's heart, he realized how much he loves him. But it was too late. He should have never let go in the first...
