One Year Time Bomb

Can't You Hear My Heart

The night was not entirely devoid of light. The numerous silvery stars shimmering in the sky. Although the snow hinders one's sight, their luminescence never paled in comparison to the flickering street lights.

Lan Wangji had been true to his words. Although Wei Wuxian refused his existence, Lan Wangji from thereon never leaves his side. Even with the cold shoulders, he continued to silently watched from a distance and follower wherever Wei Wuxian lead him to.

To have one step to him, if Lan Wangji would take another step to him... Will they be able to get closer? Just like the old times they spend together.

But to Lan Wangji that is no longer the case. As long as he is by Wei Wuxian's side, feeling never mattered.

The Jiang and Wen's watched him in pity. Knowing their little boy as a stubborn mule, he'll probably ignore Lan Wangji until the end. Once he decided there's no way he'll change that.

They're so close, yet so far. Seems like they can touch each other. But why can't their hearts reach the other?

'I won't give up. I won't give up... As you did for thirteen years... I will never give up.'

Was Lan Wangji's silent promise, proved by the bangle he return to the owner whom he deemed the only one.

'Until you let me in your life again.'

Even at the last moments.

'Until you accept me again.'

And allow him to express his love.

'Until you let me love you again.'

Even if there's no turning back.

But no matter how much Lan Wangji tried, Wei Wuxian still refused him. Saying that he said he finally decided. He said he has already let go. Said that it was too late for them to change anything. He said that he loves Lan Wangji... But he doesn't want him by his side. That he doesn't want to worsen anything anymore. That he... Had enough and only wanted to cherish his little time.

That he wanted Lan Wangji to stop.

Even in sighs, Lan Wangji could only watch. His tears rise just at the thought of wanting more, desiring more—he wants to close the excruciating painful gap between them. His eyes won't go empty. Just how many does he have to call for him to reach him?

'Can't you hear my heart yet?'

Hidden under his fingernails are the thorn-like longing. He had called and called, seek for him, reached for him, 'why can't my heart still reach you?' His every step away stomps on Lan Wangji's heart.

He could only bury himself in a sigh, just thinking about his beloved.

"Please stop Lan Zhan! Can't you see this is becoming annoying?!"

'Am I annoying? Am I like a disgusting pest?'

Lan Wangji could only smile. He did not reply to the harsh words directed at him. He did not reply how much it hurts him.

Wei Ying... His Wei Ying does not want him by his side even though he loves him.

Why?

Because he doesn't want to wait for me to hurt him again.

He said, hurting and leaving him behind, was Lan Wangji's forte. That he didn't want to suffer for the third time whenever Lan Wangji decided to leave him again. That those memories should be kept happy as they are.

His Wei Ying said... He can't have another heartbreak... Because of the same person.

That's why... He wants Lan Wangji to be a happy memory...