One Year Time Bomb

You and I from Beginning

Their field trip ended with excess fanfare. The issues were settled and Feng An felt even worse than ever. First, she watched the kiss shared between her fiancé and Wei Wuxian. She heard Lan Wangji's pleas inside the hospital room. She saw how Lan Wangji looked so smug as he watched the gambling session. And now, how Lan Wangji's arms snake on Wei Wuxian's waist protectively.

She had never been so jealous in her entire life. She had never felt so lost and angry, especially to a man—a fucking man! She never wanted to admit it but her five long years of chasing and hard work fell futilely and shattered like garbage.

Another of school, Feng decided to confront Wei Wuxian. Luckily, Lan Wangji was called by the school principal so she had the time of her life.

"Ms. Feng..." Wei Wuxian asked, "what did I do to garner your attention like this? I hope this won't be another shoving session after the last one?"

"I am not here for that..." Feng An answered, "I just want to tell you to stop whatever you are trying to do with Wangji... I do not fool not to notice your affection... And as his fiancé... I wouldn't want to destroy everything that is built between us... Just because you appeared."

Wei Wuxian felt his blood boil, "you are telling me to stay away?"

Feng An huffed, "yes.."

Wei Wuxian smirked, clearly annoyed, "and who are you tell me that? What you have with Lan Zhan is just an arrangement of sorts... And no one aside from Lan Zhan can tell me to stay away... Only him will decide whether he wants me or not."

Wei Wuxian was about to walk away when he felt the tight hand on his arm, "don't you dare turn your back on me!"

Wei Wuxian spun around, his eyes menacingly pierced Feng An's eye, "conduct yourself, Ms. Feng..."

"How dare you?!" She hissed, "you have no right to tell me to conduct myself... Five years of conducting myself already let me have what I wanted! But I wouldn't risk it just because of you..."

Wei Wuxian smiled wryly, "five years? Just five years?"

Wei Wuxian's laugh sounded hurtful, so pained and yearning.

"Then... You have no right to count the years you've pinned Lan Zhan for..." Wei Wuxian's eyes probe at her, tugging his arms and left a message so strong that even Feng An did not expect.

"You dare act so arrogant at me for a measly five years? Hah! It cannot be compared to thirteen years of longing worth of one year together.."

Feng An watched Wei Wuxian's back banished from sight.

'thirteen years of Longing worth of one year?'

'Why one year?' Feng An asked, 'and thirteen years?'

But no one has yet to answer her.

For the first time in her life, she knew defeat—

With just mere words.

Feng An went back home dejectedly. Lan Wangji had successfully ignored her again. He sat down the moment she closed her room's door as she cried herself.

She remembered the days where she was nothing but a shame for her family. She remembered when she was in middle school she would always have to pleas others to find her worth.

But, what changes her views was the Lan Wangji of five years ago. Who stood up before her tell her words of encouragement as he shielded her from bullies.

She had then known what love at first sight is.

The emotions of love and traps made her cry. In a place where she saw nothing but darkness and time stills, she remembered those words, those eyes that set the fire in her.