Getting up for a day I don't even want to start.
Wiped my tears away, but knowing that they'll come again.
Not sure about this journey anymore
Or at least where I am to start it.
All this fake positivity has finally taken a toll on me.
I'm screaming on the inside.
Ready to let it go in real life.
Can I just go home already?
Fast forward to when I'm established and happy already?
I know God hears me, but
I feel bad for always complaining to him;
Crying these sad, frustrated tears again.
Repeating my small mistakes.
One looking worse than the other.
How do I pass?
How do I keep moving forward?
What does trying even look like anymore?
Is it too much to move even slower?
I'm afraid and I'm losing hope fast.
Even if I slightly exceed,
I'll still go through a similar process as before
With the same mental drain,
Emotional pain,
And financial strain.
The white cloth sways in the distance
And I'm its owner.

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Revisiting my thoughts: Poem from within [Vol 4] *RE-EDITS IN PROGRESS*
RandomVarious themed poems inspired by real life, relatable and personal experiences and topics. ***Disclaimer: Any media used is not owned by this author