Revisiting my thoughts: Poem from within [Vol 4] *RE-EDITS IN PROGRESS*

A failed shot?

I'm having thoughts

And it is hurting me.

Completely.

It's like it wants me to scream.

Chasing for an answer

Hopelessly.

It's like I cannot breathe.

Just take me out of my misery.

Didn't want to look up to heaven

Because I know He's mad at me.

Questioning me.

I knew not to run or hide

Like the way Jonah did.

I just wish for a second.

A moment to heal

From all the pain that

I'm going through.

Can time just go still?

I just want another redo.

Did I not try my hardest?

What does that look like to you?

I feel like I gave it my best.

Gave it my limb

And my tired little heart, too.

Who's to blame?

If not me,

Can it be you?