Revisiting my thoughts: Poem from within [Vol 4] *RE-EDITS IN PROGRESS*

Personal conversation

Can't express your feelings right.

Your words are heard,

But not cherished in the same light.

You stand up

And they make you fall.

You choose to rest temporarily

And they force you to rise,

While kicking you down some more.

I tried to hide the ugly:

Tight lips.

Dull spirit.

I turned towards them

With a small smile

Easing my way up to normal health.

It wasn't enough.

I'm kicked down again.

My words.

My actions.

My thinking.

My careful gestures.

It is never enough.

And for that,

I will always be left as

Not being good enough.

They ask me what's wrong:

I am not brave enough.

They say I don't match their energy:

I am not fun enough.

They say everything

Minus the good I still bring

When I am struggling to be enough of something.

They speak upon it,

But the amount can only hold a musterseed.

It is all just too much.