Doraemon [ But it's 18+]

● Fantasy

"Dekisugi!"

Dekisugi's blurred-out vision snapped back into reality. His head felt like it was about to burst. He sighed deeply as he tried to regain his composure.

"Are you alright?" Nobita asked in a calm voice.

Slowly coming back to his senses, his eyes widened a bit.

"What-what happened?"

"You fell asleep on the couch, seems like you aren't enjoying it as well"

Dekisugi took a glimpse of Nobita. He didn't seem drunk at all. Others around them were still busy partying. Suddenly a mixed feeling of embarrassment and guilt chained Dekisugi's soul.
He couldn't believe he sensually imagined Nobita. A feeling, that he had been suppressing for a long time.

"I think I should leave now, it's already 11 pm, otherwise my mom would bury me alive, you can stay if you want to"

"I-I think I will stay a bit more"

Dekisugi stuttered. He was mortified inside. He didn't want to spend a second more with Nobita. He was afraid of the effect that man's mere presence had on him.

"Alright, see you then"

Nobita left the room while Dekisugi remained seated, biting his nails.

*"I can't be abnormal...I can't be gay"*

"Hi, Dekisugi" He felt a hand sliding across his shoulder.

"Oh.. hey shizuka" he answered with a forced smile.

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah, why?"

"You were passed out on the couch for an hour"

"I wasn't, I just fell asleep"

"In this much noise, that's impressive"

Dekisugi couldn't tell if Shizuka was being sarcastic or not but he chose to ignore it.

"So why didn't you wake me up?"

"I was about to but that bloodsucker rescued you first"

*"how dare she"* , "you mean, nobita?"

"Who else? I still doubt he is a topper, what if he uses a Doraemon's gadget?"

"No, he does not"

Dekisugi was enraged. No matter how much he hated Nobita's presence for making him feel the way he didn't want to but it was his problem, not Nobita's. And he hated it when someone as a third person judged another's hard work and regarded it as "luck" or "cheating". Jealousy is a hell of a disease. The majority seem to suffer from it.

"Oh come on Dekisugi! If he had that much potential, how come he scored zero on every damn test!"

"Because he was late to realize that he never really had any friends"

"Just because I talked to him doesn't mean I was his friend, he was foolish to consider that, I was just being "kind" You know? Because Gian and Suniyo used to bully him"

"So kind, that you used him as a key to Doraemon's gadget every single time you had a problem or a stupid wish"

"How can you talk to me like that? I never ran to him and that blue garbage tin for my problems, he was the one who always offered to help me or to become a "better" version of himself to impress me,
It was cringe"

"Cringe? He considered you as his only friend, your happiness was his, he liked you, and someday found the courage to ask you out, through a fucking letter, and instead of politely rejecting him face to face personally or writing the same, you ridiculed him in front of the whole class! You tore his letter down! Despite all this, you still don't feel a pinch of guilt?"

"Wow... you have changed a lot, can't believe I thought of getting laid by you tonight"

Dekisugi was disgusted by Shizuka's words. How can one say that with such confidence on someone's face? Moreover, he didn't even like Shizuka, all he saw her was as his classmate.

"I think I should leave now"

He was about Stand up as Shizuka held his hand.

"I don't know what has gotten into you, but I like you Dekisugi... you are handsome, you have always been a topper, you can cook, you can play, there is nothing that someone can hate about you..."

"Leave my fucking hand before I punch your imaginative pretty face"

Dekisugi said in a stern and deep voice. As he forcefully pulled his hand away.

"Fine!! Your fucking loss you bastard! Who do you even think you are!!"

She screamed at the top of her lungs as Dekisugi stepped out of the door.

It would be a lie if one said Shizuka wasn't hot. She was the most popular girl. The fact her crush rejected her and took the side of Nobita whom she considered "too ugly" for her hurt her ego.

"Have Nobita and Dekisugi left?" Suniyo asked Shizuka

"Oh fuck those whores! I don't even wanna hear their names!"

Suniyo was startled by Shizuka's response. She seemed severely drunk and it worried Suniyo. He knew how much her mother despised alcohol. And moreover, it seemed like Shizuka had changed a lot. It would be a lie if he said she was always like this. She was kind and sweet before. But somehow in 8th std, it seemed like she was robbed of her innocence and purity. She became arrogant and felt like she should be the center of attention. She started drinking and smoking at a young age. Her mother became depressed because of her changed character. He remembers the day clearly,

"Suniyo... I don't feel like she's my daughter"

And it has only become worse since.

●Dekisugi's house:

Dekisugi stood I'm front of his mirror. God knows how many times he checked his neck.

*"There is no mark... no redness..."*

Finally feeling content, he lay on his bed, trying to sleep. But all he could think about was his dream.

*"It's just a misunderstanding...I like-I like girls..."*

A tear rolled down his cheek as he tried to control his emotions.

*"What would my mom think?"*

It was all too overwhelming for him. This society and the biology he read till the 10th standard seemed to classify his feelings as abnormal. The feelings, he had no control over. A man should like a woman. That's how sexual Reproduction works, that's how the continuity of generations goes on. That's what the natural process must be.

Even if he put everything aside, some religions also seemed to classify him as a "sinner" who will be sent to hell.

So even God hates him? Or wait...

Is there a God who doesn't?