★Jupiter From Afar★

★Introduction★

“I don’t want love in my life” was the word that always accompanied me in this big world..
Like a card people know about me from it, I kept repeating until it became an integral part of me,“Lara doesn’t like these things and never wants to get into relationship.”
Most people think that dating is my problem..
However,love itself is the whole problem..
I am afraid of love,it’s more correct to say “I was afraid” of love..
I’m afraid of being hurt,I don’t feel like I belong to it..
My heart can’t take this emotion..
I don’t know how to express or show my feelings..
Also, I was killing the feeling of love in me to not be interested in anyone..
But one day…
And while many things were changing, this too was destined to change..
Sometimes I still have a hard time accepting the idea,how,just how?
Despite the iron walls I have built to strengthen my heart, the principles and ideas I have raised and convinced myself..
He came to cross the walls like a hidden ghost and entered my mind like a deadly bullet..
He taught me a lot and still does..
I never regret a moment when I loved him even that it was from afar..
No,it’s not exactly what you think,it’s not a sad ending,and I can’t say it’s left in the open..
More precisely,it is closed,with this book, it will be completely closed with the letters, words and lines in it..
There is no end,not because there is no beginning,but because there is no show…
And isn’t it what keeps us following the story to the end?
There is only a beginning in my story.
I clung to it because there was nothing else!
He didn’t complete it,he didn’t..
Today, I’m writing to get out of a web I’m stuck in..
I unleash the emotions he killed and now I mummify them with my own hands..
I loved him so much and it’s better that he didn’t know,believe me..
My story is not uncommon..
On the contrary, many will find this book a cure for their wounds..
But my love was rare,at least for me..
And if I had to give some advice about love, I would say:
You cannot appreciate your feelings until you lose them..
Emotions are the most valuable thing a person has..
Don’t give everything you have until you are sure that the person you give will stay with you and give you in return..
Otherwise, you will lose these feelings forever..
“If all life is going to be stingy with you later, it’s okay to be a little stingy now”
Although this book will close a page that was very important to me at some point in my life,I hope it will be a new page for others..
And now here I am, as I said before..
I mummify the feelings that I never expected to die but that died..
Even though it’s over and I can’t feel them again…
However,it is always there..”A ray of hope”..
Hoping to be reborn..
Venüs..