Stray Kids Oneshots BXB 1

🚫⚜️Hyunlix-Home (Reuploaded)

             ♥︎☆Felix's Pov☆♥︎

I got an apartment in the city,somewhere that I never thought I would ever be back to,Australia. Why? Because after I broke up with Hyunjin,I left the country. Everything I looked at there reminded me of him.

The hot pot restaurant reminded me of our first date,the coffee shop I used to work at and where I first met him. My old apartment is where Hyunjin and I made love a lot and where he basically lived.

Everything is over for me in Korea,I have nothing left there. I couldn't stay because I knew that Hyunjin would do everything he could to try to get me back. This is a new chapter of my life,a new me.

I got my old job back as a songwriter,it feels so strange to be back as I haven't been home since I was 18. I left home to pursue more knowledge in life and different experiences, little did I know while in college I would meet Hyunjin.

I want to say that I am fine without Hyunjin and I don't want to run into his arms holding him tight but those days are over. I just need to accept that.

There is nothing else to say,his mother wants grandchildren and I'm holding him back. But also he deserves someone better, someone that doesn't hold him back.

I have started to take up bad habits to numb the pain of this broken heart but nothing is helping. I walk up the stairs to get to the rooftop before pulling a cigarette out of my back pocket and the lighter.

I take in the smoke before blowing it back out. It will only de-stress me for a while then the effects go away. This city doesn't feel like home but my home,my heart is gone. Tears starts to form in my eyes as I pace the rooftop.

Please not here,I can't embarrass myself but I can't help but think of the time that Hyunjin and I had a dinner date on the rooftop together at his apartment's rooftop.

I sit down with my back next to the door as tears drip down my cheeks. I miss him so much,so much that I replay the messages that he sent me in my voicemail to hear his voice.

There are so many things that I wish I could have said to him, I want to call him to tell him that I'm sorry but I can't. He is better off,I'm sure by now he is hanging out with I.N and living well. So why am I so hung up on him? Why is this tearing me apart?

We dated for 6 years,I met him at my work and he slipped a napkin to me with his number written on it. From there I started being his coffee guy as he started to come in there regularly. My life has changed so much because of Hyunjin.

I quickly wipe away the tears as I keep inhaling the smoke and blowing it out. I can't believe how fast I went down hill, I'm broken. I haven't slept in 3 days but I only sleep maybe 3 days within the week.

Only thing I have is a necklace that is around my neck now. I clutch it close to my chest before I hear footsteps making me stumble to my feet. Han Jisung,my coworker that I am somewhat close to, came through the door.

"Felix,you've been up here longer than normal,are you okay?" He knows how long my smoke breaks take? Wow okay then?

I sniffle quickly then responded "Yeah,just enjoying the weather, you know I'm not a cave dweller." I joke as I know that he won't come closer to see my face because of his fear of heights.

"Yes Felix but I was afraid that you were going to pass out or something bad like that" He does have a fair point to worry but at the same time,I do this almost everyday.

I hear Han making small steps towards me before pulling me back away from the ledge. "Are you suicidal or something?" I'm not that sad but it's like everything reminds me of him,even the smallest things. I want him.