Dream Sanders
Denver, Colorado 📍
20 Years old
"The type of ways I feel,
you stuck on my brain"
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"Best don't start" I waved JJ off as we were in fact time
"I'm just saying, what are the fucking chances of that boy coming back in your life unintentionally, single as fuck and fine as the fuck" she popped every possible syllable she could
"Look, I don't know if I want to go down that road. Yea I miss what we had but I don't think that mean I need to get back with him or even friends" I shrugged doing my eyebrows
"Well he's been around your niece and nephew for years. Your going to at least have to be cool with him for the kids sake" she looked at me and I just shook my head
"Girl that lil boy look just like his momma" I said referring to Dontae son
"Best we not talking about the baby we talking about the daddy" she laughed shaking her head
"I know but he just so handsome" one thing about me I love me some kids especially if they ain mine
"Ok, why you keep saying that. What's the feelings behind this thought" she crossed her arms
"I guess a part of me wish it was our baby" I shrugged then got up going into my living room seeing her walk through the door
"The hell" I was confused as fuck cause this butch move fast
"Now we Finna unpack this shit cause I'm tired of you locking these feelings away and not healing" she sat on the couch ending the call
"Girl no, I'm good. I love what I got what Taylor and I'm not finna fuck that shit up over some old feelings" I grabbed my water taking a sip
"That's your problem now. You don't like change and you scared of getting hurt. I know it's cause of what happened to you growing up but you gotta let that go Best" she held my hand
"Let what go? Nothing is wrong with me protecting myself and I'm fine with change but not when it makes me change"
"Let go of your moms death. Let go of getting raped. Let go of your dad not being there. Let go of being cheated on. Let go of not getting the life you feel you deserve" she started naming off everything that had ever happened to me
"It's not your fault that your uncle was a sick person, it's not your fault the murders got away with what happened to momma, it's not your fault that people can't commit to you" I started tearing up as she held me
"It's not your fault that life isn't going as expected. You have to be patient and let god do what needs to be done. He can't just hand you your life without preparing you for it first" I started crying harder as she held me
"Look at me" she pulled away from the hug wiping my tears
"You deserve to be loved, happy, stabled financially, mentally, and emotionally. You deserve to have the family of your dreams. It doesn't matter what you and Tae went through in the past. What matters is the now and the future" I wiped my tears and started smiling because she always knows how to heal me wether she knows it or not
