Chained Hearts☘︎

Seokjin past life

"H-hyung I-im-m s-sorry, I'm r-real-ly sorr..ry... P-please.. forgi-ve me-e plee-ase.."

"H--h-y-u--n---ng.... Wak-e up.."

"Don't, don't leave me hyung.. open your eyes and look at m-me..."

"I said wake up!"

"Hyung!"

"I'm sorry.."

Seokjin woke up from his deep slumber in the middle of the night. His body jerked off from the bed, sweat drops slide down from his forehead. He found his throat drying up by the fear. His heart hammering in his chest ready to jump out from his rib cage.

"It was that dream again"
He said running his hands up and down slowly on his chest.

"Calm down. It just a dream"

Although he knew it was just a dream and had it multiple times since years, he still has not used to have it. The immense fear, uneasiness he feels when he wakes up from his nightmares, can't explain verbally.
He is having the same damn nightmare often nowadays after coming to Korea but the most tricky part about it is, the kid calling him hyung in his dream is Namjoon! Jin couldn't get a glimpse of the crying boy in his dreams over years but as soon as Namjoon entered his life, the blur image of the boy was cleared up.. it was young Namjoon. He was too young, innocent. Jin couldn't forget the tearful eyes of the young joonie.
At this point he was cleared about one thing, that he knew Namjoon before and he don't have a memory of those times.

How it feels to lose memories?
Seeing them as nightmares? worst, isn't it?
He sighed. He can't fall asleep anytime soon so in the meantime he wanted to check on Namjoon whether he's home or not cause after their last encounter Namjoon visited home very less. He saw taehyung throwing tantrums about it to Jungkook. Everyone knew how much Namjoon loves taehyung and he never busy for him but now he isn't available to him also. It must have been very hard for him, after all he's human too. He is hurt. He is in pain, heartbroken. He need alone time to brace himself from his emotions.

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Jin came to Namjoon's room with a heavy heart which he wants to get rid off soon if possible. At this moment he just wanted to see him, how's doing lately without anyone knowing his suffering. His feet halt beside his bed. He was curled up inside a duvet like a fluffy white ball. His trembling hand pulling off the fabric that covered his entire body, he stopped as soon as he saw his face. The sight was unpleasant to Jin. He looked pale, he must have cried to sleep, Jin thought.
His lips were chopped and dry. He lost some weight too. His hair grew little longer when he last saw him. He no longer looked strong, merciless, he was like a soaked puppy in the rain, vulnerable.
Jin covered his face again. He found himself crying, hot tears streamed down on his trembling cheeks. He came back to his room. He was so worried seeing Namjoon like that. He wants him to be happy, but what he done was just brought pain to NamJoon. He wasn't intended to hurt but wanted him to show how he suffered when he was ignored and left alone but his actions caused more effects than he thought they would be.

He wants to know more about Namjoon, how he lived before, what relationship he shared with him before he forgetting everything, why he was living in another country but not in his hometown. But...
Who can answers his questions and who should he trust anyway, he doesn't remember a thing about his before self. But the only person who came to his mind was Yoongi. He might know something about his past regressions.
He waited for the sun to rise up quickly that night.

~*******~

"So who am I?"
Asked Jin leaning in from his chair looking straight into Yoongi's cold eyes.

"Don't you know who you are? You're Kim Seokjin, in case you forgot"

I'm not here to joke"

"Well I'm not doing it either"

"It's a bit serious Mr. Min! I am seeing Namjoon in my dreams like from many years! He's too young in them. He call me highschool hyung, ask me to not forget him, apologise to me over and over.. I feel like we've been known each other way too long.
You know something about it and I need answers rn!!"

"How can I know about YOUR so called dreams? You're not from here to begin with"

"How can I have such dreams if I am not from here!!

"How do your dreams are my concern Jin ssi?"

"Listen Mr min Yoongi I seriously need to know about this and I can't ask Namjoon so you're my only hope now."

"I don't know what you're talking about and.. you're wasting my time"

"I said I need to know!! I have to, for NamJoon so please,
Please tell me whatever you know. Please Yoongi... plea..se
-jin pleaded. His eyes becomes glossy, he turned away from Yoongi attempting not to break down in front of him.

It's been so many years since he called by Jin like that. As if he's talking to old Jin, Suga wanted to hug his Jin hyung but Jin might not be take it well considering his confused self.

"Hyung, you really felt some connections huh. I never thought I would tell you this in person"

Jin wipped his head back at Yoongi.
"So will you tell me why did I forget everything? Him?"

"You met with an accident 9 years ago"

Jin nodded.
"What I was to NamJoon then? Hyung?.. Friend?..or more than that?
While asking this Jin wanted them to be more than friends.

"Tbh, I really can't answer that question hyung.. but, you both were inseparable when the things were going right and he was super in love with you"

Jin's heart made a flip hearing that Namjoon loved him before too.
"What do you mean when the things were right? Don't tell me we..we broke up! We didn't right?"

"You did unfortunately. I can't call that a break up yet it sort of like that"

Jin heart racing faster this time. He doesn't want to hear the word 'brake up' especially with Namjoon.
"What did I do?"

"How are you so sure that you're the one who did wrong hyung? It could be Namjoon too?"

"No. It must've been me. I can see how much he loved me in those dreams. I must be at the fault so tell me what did I do?"
Jin felt his heart burning. He don't want to know the reason yet he's asking for it.

"You cheated"
Yoongi said making Jin jump out from the couch

"No that can't be! You're lying Yoongi!
I couldn't do that to NamJoon!!"
Jin was more than shocked to know that. Not in a million reasons he thought it would be this.

"We know that too and that's why Namjoon didn't want to give up on you. He didn't even believe that but you are the one who insisted to stay away from him, from his life. You choose to leave him"

"Was that when I got into an accident?"

"Yes and y_you lost your mother in the accident"

"What? My mother?"
Jin widen his eyes at the 'mother' word

"Yes. You were on the way to airport with your mother and you know everything turned down. She died in the hospital and you were unconscious for several days"

Then how come he was living in Japan? How did he do that? What about the old man he thought as his grandfather? Is everything a lie? Jin mind was a mess right now.
"Yoongi.. Tell me from the beginning. I want to know everything"

Suga made him to sit on the couch. He handed Jin a glass of water to make him calm down.

"Namjoon was 13 and you were 15 when you first met him...