Chained Hearts☘︎

His Namjoon

Jin came back to home, to his room and placed the thing that Yoongi gave him in the drawer beside his bed. He is not at all ready to listen to his mother's voice or see her. He lived a lonely life all these years in a far away country thinking he has no one else to call his family, he simply isn't ready to accept a "mother", a died one at that. He's scared to see what's inside that thing. He decided to take a look at it when he's okay, when everything is okay. He sighed and laid down on his bed and closed his eyes, letting the darkness surround his mind, body.

He remembered Namjoon

He remembered every little thing that Yoongi said to him earlier

He remembered Namjoon again

He pictured them, how might be they were in teens watching movies, playing together, hanging out, crying rivers when they had little arguments like how Yoongi narrated to him.

He was the one to pulled Namjoon out from his den of loneliness but he is the one who pushed him in another pit of loneliness.

Where did it go wrong?

He used to think he's the only one hurted in this relationship by the other but unknowingly he caused more pain to NamJoon just by entering his life again

How will he going to fix everything?

He could've been more careful with the way he handled things but isn't it too late to think about it now?

He felt pain in his heart just by hearing that Namjoon was bullied, he may denay the feelings he has for him but his heart.. it's belongs to him.. it belonged to him only, from way before than he ever thought of.

He knew, he will never ever get over him, not in this lifetime

He started to miss him.

So badly

He wants to apologise to him

He wants to let him know that he loves him and he mean it.

He wants to kiss his tears away

He wants to hold his hands

He wants to give hugs to him.

He wants to kiss his lips

He wants to claim his cheeks, nose, jawline, neck..

He wants to feel his skin against his hands

He wants to run his hands in his soft and silky hair

He wants to be held in his strong arms

He wants to scream that he loves him with all his heart

He wants to say that he is everything to him

He wants him to make love to him

He wants to make him happy

He wants..

He wants..

He wants..

Fuck!

Fuck everything!

He wants him to be his!

Only his

He took his phone out of his pocket and dialled.. he wasn't sure the latter would answer his call but he did.

"Namjoon! Can I See You Right Now Please!"

With that, Jin cried louder.