Chained Hearts☘︎

Parting ways

Spoe POV:

It was past 1 in the middle of the night but Yoongi couldn't close his eyes for a minute to sleep.

How did Hoseok knew that he likes him?
He thought about it many times bc he never showed any little sign of liking him all those years then how the fuck he knows?
At this time, all he could remember was that "steamy kiss" of them.

He was the one to broke the kiss making latter confused. Along with that he stood abruptly after placing  Hoseok back on the bed and just walked straight to the couch. He slept his back facing him. He didn't even bother to see him in the morning and left before Hoseok wake up. He got a call from Namjoon about Jin's grandfather as soon as he step into his house. With all the commotion, he couldn't make time to talk with him.

There were so many what if's going on in his mind.
What if Hoseok questioning his decision of kissing him?
what if Hoseok thought it as a mistake or regretting it?
What if Hoseok found him insane?,
bc Yoongi haven't let his guards down all these years but it happened and it made Hoseok surprised, even he, himself got surprised at his own actions. But he acknowledge his behaviour and he isn't a type of running away from the mess he caused or being a reason of it.
He don't want his love life turned out to be pathetic, sad. He witnessed Jin and Namjoon's love blooming, withering from some shitty misfortunes and falling down and he don't want to go through all of that with Hoseok.
He wants to be able to call him as "his" proudly and wants to be loved by him. He doesn't want any drama between them.

He decided to talk with him and his feet brought him at his door at that ghostly hour of the night. He knocked on the bedroom door and was surprised that he got the response in an instance. He thought Hoseok was in deep slumber to open the door just by the first knock. He stepped into the room and sat on the couch across him. He looked at Hoseok like nothing happened between them but he was frightened on the inside.

"Do you have a minute to talk?"
He asked seeing Hoseok fidgeting with his shirt paws

"What you want to talk about?"
_hoseok asked not looking at him

"It's about,,hm, the kiss"
_yoongi saw Hoseok widen his eyes after mentioning the kiss.

"Wh_what about it?"
_his head slowly rose up to meet Yoongi's eyes.

"I'm sorry for leaving early without seeing you this morning. I was just embarassed and worried at the same time. I shouldn't have behaved like that last night and I don't want to see you regretting kissing me so I left.
I..I wasn't ready to look you in the eyes.
Honestly I don't know you liked the kiss or not but I did. I understand, You don't have to like it tho, heck you don't have to like me back.

I just came to let you know that I genuinely like you. I don't want to hide it from you anymore and I will pretend like nothing happened between us if you want to.
I'm sorry for keeping you awake at this hour to talk about it, You probably seeing me an idiot right now. And..ah, I should get going,
Good night Hoseok."
_yoongi stood up from the couch sighing. Somehow he felt better after pouring everything out. If Hoseok wouldn't like him back, he don't have to regret anything in the future, atleast he tried.

"So..the kiss didn't mean anything to you when you are this desperate to accept it as a mistake and letting me go before you even try to work things out between us?. I thought you are strong witted!"
-hoseok's voice held so much power that Yoongi felt his mind going weak by his words. It wasn't his intention to make Hoseok think like he is ready to be rejected by him. He simply spit out the words wrong. He needs to communicate more with people to learn how to make use of wording correctly in order to avoid the price of misspelt lines. Now he fucked up real bad.