Chained Hearts☘︎

Fear of losing you

Jungkook:

He loosed his grip around taehyung after he calmed down. He removed tae's clothes and picked up the confused latter in a bridal style to the bathroom. He laid him down in the bath tub carefully, his mind wants to run away and hide where tae can't see his embarrassed self. He never broke down in front of tae like that and he's fighting against himself really hard not to meet the latter eyes.

For the first time in three years, he's afraid to touch taehyung though he never desired his body sexually, he wants to claim the latter as his. Only his.
The urge to say that he loves him, wants to keep him all for himself, on top of that giving all the love he has for him is far beyond his control now.
The thought of someone touched him in an inappropriate way made him weak, pathetic. It made him fear of losing someone who never was his in the first place.

He's sitting on his knees while rubbing tae's chest slowly.

"Have I ever made him feel uncomfortable?"
His fingers halted on his chest

"Tae.."he called

Taehyung was already fixed his eyes on jungkook.

"Did you ever feel scared of me?"

Tae shook his head as "no"

He sighed.

Tae raised his eyebrow at him

"Did my touches ever disgusted you?"

"Have you ever felt uneasy around me?"

"Have you ever felt anoyyed by having me with you all the time?"

Tae shook his head, "no"again.

He heaved a sigh, sigh of relief.

"D..do you feel safe with me?"
_ he asked running his hand on tae's face. This time he got a nod from the latter.

He felt like a huge weight lifted off from his shoulder, he slumped down on the wet floor of the bathroom. Tears threatening to fall down any time soon, he blinked them off.
He took a minute to relax himself, his mind and body was a mess since last night. He breathed out.
Once he done collecting his lost emotions, he heard a whimper. He looked at tae and got panicked seeing teary eyes of him.

Tae! What happened? Why are you crying?

Did I rub your body too hard?

Does it hurt anywhere?

Or Is water got cold?
_tae nodded.

Oh god, don't cry.
Stupid of me, kept you long in the shower."
He quickly swept away his tears and drained the water. He carefully lifted tae up and secured him in his tight embrace. He exited the bathroom and sat on the bed placing taehyung on his lap. He hurriedly wiped his body with a towel and threw it away somewhere in the room. He wrapped himself with a duvet with tae on his lap to make him feel the warmth of his own body. Tae's face is hiding in the crook of his neck.

I'm so sorry, I didn't realise.
_he apologised.

Tae's tummy growled a little.

You're hungry. You're little tummy is growling for the food. I will bring your breakfast until you should lay down. Okay?
_He said while detaching himself from him but the latter pressed his head into his neck even more, snuggling closer. Tae surely don't want to lose the warm feeling surrounding his body. He smiled gently. He bundled up tae, holding him in his strong arms, he stepped closer to the elevator and pressed the button.