Karl and sapnap were having dinner the bathroom were locked like they always were.
Karl really didn't want to eat he was purely disgusted with himself that he was eating it made him look in his eyes desguted when he ate.
Even though he only had about half the amount sapnap had it still looked to him like mountains of torcher he'd half to get through.
"Sapnap can I please use the bathroom" Karl asked quietly.
"Karl baby" sapnap said knowing Karl didn't need the bathroom as he had made sure he went before as they locked the doors after every meal.
"Youre perfect ok you don't need to" sapnap said holding his hands. "Please I can't- *gag* keep this down" he said. "It's alright just breathe for me"
"Sapnap I can't!" Karl screamed.
"Alright come on then" sapnap said picking Karl up as he clapped a hand to his mouth.
He unlocked the door setting Karl down on the floor beside kneeling down with him as he gagged again.
"It's alright babe it's ok it will pass" he said rubbing his back.
As soon as Karl was done he wrapped his arms around sapnap and cried into him. "I know it's ok it's all going to be ok"
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So yeah the truth was Karl was dealing with several eating disorders that he had since he was young.
He worked in the modeling industry and they tracked his weight and gave him meal plans he had to stick through it was very damaging for him to be screamed at constantly for gaining even a pound of weight.
He would be shamed and sometimes beaten if he did. And it had taken a massive toll on his mental and physical health. He was severely malnourished and extremely unhealthy but it was always covered up by makeup and filters in his photos.
He had been tricked and manipulated into thinking he had to look perfect all the time and that means staying skinny and fit putting high amounts of makeup and filters to make him look acceptable and even then it wasn't good enough his manager always wanted more weather he wanted his arms more pronounced or his chin and jaw sharper he critiqued every part about him.
But Karl loved the modeling but walking on cat walks, posing for pictures, trying on new clothes, he loved that bit but everything else definitely not.
He'd been battling anorexia and bulimia because of all of this.
He had met sapnap at one of his shoots he was one of the designers sons that had come to check out the set and they had fallen in love almost instantly deciding to move in a little later.
But that meant it was impossible to hide his eds, but Instead of leaving him he helped him constantly but it doesn't just go away like that it takes allot of time.
Because you can't just spend almost 10 years with an ed and then just get rid of it like that it takes time, allot of time.
And this unfortunately had become an almost daily thing now a days they tried to lock the toilets. But his bulimia had gotten to a point were he physically couldn't eat something without throwing up. But at least locking the door meant sapnap had to open them so Karl couldn't go in on his own and make himself throw up more than he already was.
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"Sh sh sh it's ok it's all ok" sapnap said comforting Karl who was balling his eyes out. It had never been this bad where he was unable to control any of it.
"I'm s-scared" Karl sobbed into sapnaps chest. Sapnap didn't know what to say back because the truth was it had never been this bad and he was scared aswell. "I know I know its ok though alright it's all going to be ok"
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Old Habits | karlnap
Fanfiction<3 Tw Heavily based on eating disorder. Karl as always struggled with an eating disorder for as long as he could remember. He was brought up in the modeling industry were they basically forced him not to eat where they'd give him diet plans which so...
