Old Habits | karlnap

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It had been 6 hours since Karl was told about his surgery and after the nurse took his feeding tube out of his stomach. Sapnap tried to get him to sleep so he wouldn't get as worried. Letting him just sleep so he wouldn't psych himself out and especially with a weak heart a panic attack isn't really the most ideal.

"sweetheart you have to wake up now" sapnap said lightly shaking him awake.

"Sapnap- what why-" Karl whined after being woken. "You have your surgery in a second baby you need to be up" sapnap explained calmly running a hand through his hair.

"No no sapnap I'm scared what if I don't live oh no please don't let them" Karl said Fanning his face with his hands starting to breathe deeply.

"Sh sh just relax sweetie ok you know they have to it's going to make you feel better ok" he said.

"Sh sh sh it's ok" sapnap says trying to calm him. "It's alright now it's ok" sapnap cooed stroking his head.

Karl calmed down a little bit fairly quickly but was still scared and shaky. "Sappy?" Karl asked looking up at him with puppy dog eyes.

Sapnap thought it was the cutest thing he'd every see  but yet one of the most sad to see his beloved boyfriend lying in a hospital bed attached to wires left right and centre bearly alive.

"Can you cuddle me" he asked his voice sounding so quiet and tired not to mention shaky.

"Of course darling c'mere" Sapnap called carefully lowering himself down in bed beside him wrapping his arms around him he could feel his rips and spine so much almost like he was a skeleton his skin was pale and cold with a greyish tone almost dead looking.

He started stroking his hair noticing how thin his long fluffy hair had gotten after the last few weeks it was also tangled and matted and molded in some places . "I didn't know about your hair darling" sapnap said trying to brush through it gently but it was no use it wouldn't untangle just would come out in chunks.

"What's wrong with my hair" Karl asked sounding confused and scared. "Nothing baby don't worry" sapnap said not wanting Karl to start stressing about something else.

He'd always loved his hair liking to style it and out clips in it and dye it different colours for modeling but right now sapnap thought if he tried to do anything he would just go completely bald and that would crush him.

"I'm so cold" Karl whimpered snuggling into sapnaps arms.

It wasn't cold in the room. At all 27⁰ degrees (80 Fahrenheit)  in the room and was hot outside aswell plus they were under a thick blanket.

But Karl had almost zero body fat to keep him warm as he was so malnourished.

Sapnap hated himself for not noticing how truely malnourished he actually was he knew it was getting bad he even thought about taking him somewhere but he never fucking did and he felt awful looking down at Karl seeing him barely there at all wasting away slowly.

And sapnap begins to wonder..

Will he make it

A/n

Slight cliffhanger there oop.

Just also clearing up something about the whole feeding tube and eating before surgery thing. I did some research on this and it says you can have a feeding tube in for up to six hours before the surgery which was when Karl was asleep. But you can't eat 12-8 hours before the surgery depends on what type of surgery youre getting, and water is 6 hours aswell explaining the up of water he drank before and how that was ok.

Obviously I'm not a doctor so idk if this is correct.
Let's just pretend I knew this all along sorry for not researching this before.

And also please tell me if i get things wrong please I do try research things but obviously not all info is correct and it probably varies so if u think somethings wrong pls tell me

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PLS eat today or tomorrow if it's night pls u need trust me starving yourself isn't worth it and it just makes life so much harder it makes u tired so u sit down all day and then it doesn't end up working and it's just genuinely not worth it.
Pls try love yourself and stop comparing yourself to online images

("Because they are most likely fake 🤫")