The Hidden Heart

Chapter 9

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"AYAH" Amir suddenly called out in his groggy voice.

I snapped out of my thoughts hearing his voice.

"G" I whispered

"Time" Amir said loudly

I got up from my bed grabbing the phone off the dressing table "Amir it's 8 pm" I said ever so softly laying back down.

"Okay.. we have to get up at 8am tomorrow so sleep and put an alarm for fajr" Amir commanded me.

"Okay...Sir" Saying the last part in my head. I make sure my alarm is on for fajr which is always on for me.

I closed my phone with my back facing Amir's face, but shortly I felt him turn his side too.

"Ayah, do you want food?" Amir asked suddenly.

"No I am not hungry would you like anything?" I asked Amir turning my head back as far as I could.

"No"

I should do what I can right...for him...I mean I guess that's what I am here for...I didn't want to be more of a burden than I am. Not going to lie I was hungry, but I was afraid he would not be happy to get up if I said I was hungry.

I'll eat in the morning when everyone eats. I shouldn't disturb him.

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I tried sleeping for hours but it was 12 am by now and Amir had been sound asleep. I decided to get up and sit on the floor on my prayer mat, I had prayed some nafels and read quran, by this point I fell Asleep on the prayer mat with my head on my arm. At least Amir won't be disturbed by my presence. 

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I woke up to see myself on the bed, I guess Amir had picked me up. I turn to the side to see Amir not there. I closed my eyes taking a deep breath in, feeling my heart sink as I pressed my head with my right hand. 

As I open my eyes again I see the henna designs fading away from my hands. I wanted them to go away. The function happened now I want it off, I sat upright on the bed rubbing my fingers and hands to see if that would make a difference for it to come off. 

It wasn't going to come off, I just didn't want it on anymore...

I heard the bathroom door open, as much as I wanted to look over at Amir I restrained myself. 

"Why did you sleep on the prayer mat, you were told to keep an alarm on as well for me why didn't you wake me?" Amir asked sternly. 

"I was praying..." I said softly getting out of bed and fixing the sheets. 

"I asked why DID YOU SLEEP ON THE PRAYER MAT AYAH" Amir raised his voice which startled me. I held my breath closing my eyes before I turned around to answer. 

"You seemed comfortable last night and I would have agitated you so I felt comfortable" I looked down at the floor letting my foot slide back and forth following the lines of wood. 

"You don't listen, you won't even understand and start on your way of saying things, that's your day 1 problem, screw the way you think...I am done" Amir yelled again. 

I hope no one listened outside. I stood in my place till Amir had moved to the other side of the room. 

"Get in your normal clothes and the women to get you ready will be here, you better not be late" Amir's emotionless tone only made my heart sink more. I nodded closing the door and standing in front of the mirror.