Sickening Desire

11. Thinking of her

(Theo)

(A few hours later)

Music is blasting all around and my head is pounding with the bright lights flickering above me. Kyle got invited to some party at this girls house and didn't want to be alone so I've been dragged along with him. Oh well it's free beer. Kyle walks up to me and slings an arm round my shoulder and nods his head in the direction of some blonde girl rubbing herself on her friends while she dances, "that's her!" He shouts over the music.

"Who?"
"The girl that invited us."
"She invited you. I'm just here for the fucking free beer." I shout back over the loud bass.
He rolls his eyes and smirks while leaning closer to my ear so I can hear him better, "She ain't the hottest girl at our school but she'll do for tonight." I nod along at his words unenthusiastically, not the slightest bit interested in any of his flings. Suddenly a strange thought appears in my mind so I decide to vocalise it, "Who is the hottest girl at school then?" I ask with my eyebrow arched.

He think for a minute and purses his lips until he makes his mind up and says the only thing I didn't really want to hear, "Probably Aspen Cullen. Shame she's just a fucking bitch though because fucking hell her body is incredible. And her face, even her fucking voice is straight out of a porno bro." He says while chucking a little. "Mhm" I mutter under my breath. I guess she's sorta hot. Never really thought about it to be honest, I mean sure when I saw her I thought about how good she'd look on her knees for me but then she opened her mouth for different reason and I decided how much I fucking hated her.

Sure her voice may be straight out of a porno but it doesn't mean I like hearing anything come out of it. And sure her face isn't too bad, I suppose some might call her pretty but who said I would? And her body is- fuck- yeah no her body is fucking incredible. I can't complain there.

The blonde comes up to us and places her hand on my chest while starring into Kyle's eyes. He smirks and they fall into their own 'flirty' chat. I subtly remove her hand my my chest and go to walk away so I don't have to see these two basically fuck right in front of me but the blonde grabs my arm and speaks in an extremely dragged out high pitched voice, "hey cutie, I have a friend who you could talk to you know.... Your buddy here doesn't have to have all the fun." She bats her eyes lashes as me and bites her lip, I think she's trying to be sexy but it kind of just resembles a small animal who's hungry enough to eat their own lips. So not exactly sexy, but it's an attempt I guess.

Just as I go to deny her offer and walk away from this awkward conversation, the blonde bimbo turns around and calls someone over to us. I assume its her friend because they look like copies of each other but her friend has shorter brown hair. She basically grabs me by my shirt and pulls me into the crowd where people are dancing and grinding on to each other. Maybe this is what I need, I need a good distraction from Aspe- everything on my mind. Because there is a lot of things. Not just one thing. I swear.

I push back all my thoughts and focus on my current situation, the brunette pouts her lips and rubs her front against my crotch while she rolls her hips into mine with no rhythm. I place my hands on her hips and force myself to pay attention to her instead of letting my mind wonder off to the girl I hate. Then without warning she giggles and pulls my face to hers and smashes her lips to mine.

Her tongue forced my lips to part and her tongue practically draws circles inside my mouth, she's either drunk or just can't kiss because at this point I feel like a victim of her attack. My eyes close and she moans long and hard into our 'kiss' but suddenly I wrench myself away from her and almost push her body on the floor in the process. She's whimpers in protest but I don't care enough to notice because something fucking horrific happened in my mind. While she was kissing me... it wasn't her I was thinking about.

I imagined my smurfette kissing me. Grinding on me. Moaning into my mouth. And I was imagining running my hands though a thick mane of blue hair. Not brown. I imagined starring into deep blue eyes instead of dull brown ones. I imagined her breath faltering when our tongues collided. Jesus fuck.. what the fuck am I talking about? I back away from the crowd and storm towards the doors. I'm breathing heavy and my mind is completely fucking fucked. On my way out I see Kyle viciously making out with two blondes in the corner, I don't say anything a I leave. I know he doesn't care, we're not close friends and I know he couldn't give two shits about me. Not to mention I want to punch him in the fucking face for trying it with Aspen. Christ this woman is driving me to the point of insanity.

I let out a huff and get into my car, driving off with millions of thoughts spinning in my head. How has one kiss fucking changed me? I hate this woman and she hates me. We can't stand each other so why haven't I been able to focus on a single fucking thing since our kiss last week. I clench my jaw and groan aloud as I think about how hard my cock was when Aspen was rubbing against me the night of the party. I need to fucking sleep this thing off. I arrive outside my apartment just off campus and make my way inside.

I paid extra so I wouldn't have to share with a roommate so thankfully I walk into an empty, quite apartment. I shrug my jacket off and throw it down onto the sofa, I walk further to reach my bedroom and practically throw myself down onto my king sized bed. I think I let out a small moan of satisfaction when my tense body relaxes into the mattress.

My eyes fall closed just as an idea pops into my mind. I have a plan to get what I want, and I will.

See you tomorrow smurfette.