Collage |ChaiPunk/GoldenPunk|

Paper rings

~Pavitrs POV.
(TW. Mentions and actions of eating disorders)
Me and Hobie were on the couch, ignoring the recent.. conversation we had.

"Ay, Pavi. Im going out. Stay safe kay?" He smiled at me.

"Mhm. Bye." Me and Hobie just ate.. like a lot.

the guilt curling up in my stomach like an infestation.

"Bye love u." He kissed me goodbye and left.

Once he left i ran to the washroom.

I couldnt stop myself.

Before i did it i took my shirt off and threw it in the sink, staring at my stomach in the mirror.

I can see my ribcage.

I pinch at my stomach.

"If you can pinch it you can loose it." I mumble to myself, staring at my slight gut.

I get on my knees infront of the toilet in shame, shoving the back end of my tooth brush into deep into my throat, throwing up everything i ate.

I feel so empty inside, i do it until my throat hurts.

I flush it and look back at the mirror, the small gut is still there and my knees hurt from kneeling down on the hard ground so i resort to doing it in the sink.

My throat aches and my tongue tastes like acid.

I look at my stomach and its gone, i turn the sink on and wash it all down.

"Mmh.." i groan and go to the beds and lay down.

About an hour later of me just rolling around in the bed waiting for hobie i finally hear the door open.

"Pavitr?" He smiles at me.

"Hi hobie." I smile as he comes and kisses me on the cheek.

"I have a.. a question." He anxiously said.

"Whats up? Anything." I smile at him way more.

He got on his knee.

"Hobie ? What is it? Im not in the mood for a blowjob." I groan.

"Get upp." He Chuckles and i get up, infront of him.

"Hobie.." i realize whats happening.

"Pavitr, will u errr.. marry me?" He took out a small box with a ring in it.

"Hobie..- hob.. i thought-"

"Dont tell me one more thing about not believing in labels. I want to be your... husband- i mean the law just opened that gay marriage is legal and.."

"Shut up Hobie. Ill do it." I smile and he gets up and hugs me.

He slides the ring on my left hand ring finger and i smile.

"I.. thats incredible." Miles at the door says.

"When did he get-" i look over.

"I told him to record." He chuckles.

"HE SAW ME TELL YOU ABOUT A BLOWJOB?!"

"Uh.. im still recording-" he quickly stopped.

"I hate you both." I glare at the two.

"Miles go away." Hobie said and he left.

Hobie wasted no time, he pushed me back on the bed and kissed me.

"Im totally in the mood now." I giggle.

"Good. I hope ill make this one memorable." He smiled and kissed me again, i kissed back generously.

"W.. hobie-.. stop stop.." i feel a sharp pain in my throat.

"Whats up?" He asks me and backs up.

I start coughing.

"Are you okay?" He asks

"H..ho..a- ow. My throat- it feels like i got something stuck.. hobie- im gunna go get a cup of water." I say as i get up.

I go to the small kitchen and pour myself a cup of water.

I take a sip and the pain doesnt go away.

I look at the kitchen sink, stand over it and put my fingers to the back of my throat.

I puke into the sink.

I see blood in the sink.

"W..whats going.." i look down at my hand, covered in blood.

I taste the metal on my tongue.

I cant see anything everythings all blurry.

"Pavitr?" Hobie called out.

"O..one minute!" I say before everything goes black.

~Hobies POV.

I wait for Pavitr on the bed.

"Pavitr?" I call out to him.

"One minute!" He yelled back.

"Okay.." i mumble.

I hear a loud thud.

"Pavitr?!" I yell out befor racing to the kitchen.

I see glass on the floor and pavitr laying there unconscious.

~Pavitrs POV.

I see Hobie. Hes with me, but everything around us is black.. like we're in a show.

Im in a white suit, hes in black. He has pins all over his suit like an idiot. I chuckle.

"I love you Hobie." I smile at him.

"I love you too Pavitr, but hun. You need to wake up."

"What?" I ask him, laughing it off.

"Wake up. Wake up!" He yelled at me.

"Im scared hobie stop it!"

Before i open my eyes, i can barely see its all foggy and theres ringing in my ears.

"H..hobie?" I finally get my sight and hearing back.

"Pavitr!" He hugs me tightly.

"I.. what happened?.."

"You passed out- why is there blood coming out your mouth?" He asks me.

"I threw up.. i-.. hobie.." i look at him in fear.

"Does your head hurt?" He held me close.

"No.. yes. It hurts.. a lot.. hobie im scared.." i feel tears forming in my eyes, i cant run away from this.

"Mmh- im.. do you.. god.. uh.. you ate- i dont understand- you ate i made you eat three meals.. did you throw up again? Pavitr-" he panics out.

"Its happened before-  i didnt throw up its fine Hobie. Im fine." I smile at him.

".. if you say so." He hugs me and i hug back.

"Can we go to the bed..?" I ask him.

"Yeah.. can you walk..?" He asks.

"Im.. im good." I say as we get up and walk to the bed, i stumble a bit along the way but its okay.

"We can continue if you want." I say.

"No-. No its fine." He sits me down and sits down next to me.

"Mmh.. i love you Hobie." I kiss his cheek and he smiles.

"I love you too. C'mon lets lay you down." He lays me down and tucks me in.

I quickly fall asleep. This is all horrible. I hate this.

AN: very descriptive i know from experience ‼️‼️