Collage |ChaiPunk/GoldenPunk|

I knew you were trouble.

~Pavitrs pov AGAIN.

The day after that whole thing happened me and Hobie decided we should have a ....... Talk.

"I shouldnt have said what i said Hobie."

"Likewise." He sighed.

"I want to be with you."

"I want to be with you too Pavitr but.. it cant keep being like this. We need to make some changes- i mean you told me you'd stop .. throwing up and stuff- and now your cutting yourself again??" He looked at me in disbelief.

"It was one time." I look away in embarrassment.

"One time turned into two then three then you cant stop, ive seen it before Pavitr, and its not like it was a representation if another person because it was you."

"I know- i know.. it'll be different this time." I feel like my stomach knots up when i say that because in reality.. i dont want it to be different, i like it. I dont want to change.

"You said that last time." He sighs.

"And this time it'll be real. I promise." I know it wont be so why am i saying all this stuff?

"How can i trust you?" He groans.

"How can i trust you?!" I reply "i mean you come back home fucking drunk as shit and throw me to the ground, im supposed to trust you.. what you did was worse than one pity cut."

"It wasnt- you know how deep that was?" He looked at me in disbelief. "You almost hit a vein Pavitr!" He yelled.

"Dont yell, not now." I back up from him, sitting at the bedframe, hes at the end of the bed.

"Im sorry"  he sighs.

"No.. im sorry- i shouldnt have said that- that probably.. really scared you." I think for a second.

Did it scare him? I mean.. what if Gayatri just happened to walk in. No- it was like ten pm.

"It did, i was worried sick" he scoots closer.

Phew.. i was starting to panic.

"I love you Pavitr and i hate to see you like this." He sighed.

"I love you.. too." Those words felt like swallowing needles after what happened last night, im supposed to love him. And i do, but some part of me feels like im actually supposed to hate him.

"Im sorry." He says once more.

"Im sorry too." I sigh, i do regret what i said. I didnt even mean to say gaya's name, it just slipped out. It was like 10am for gods sake.

"Come here." He says and pulls me in for a hug.

I hug him tightly, my arm aching.

"I shouldnt have said that man." He says.

"Im.. its fine. You were right about.. everything anyways." I sigh and look down at his chest.

"No.. its- i wasnt right. I mean look at you, i can see your bones." Hobie gently grabs my wrist and i look up at him. "You're perfect Pavitr. You dont need to be thinner, you dont need to be anything. You just need to be you." He poked my chest and i giggled.

KYS

I HATE YOU

SLUT

WHORE

CUNT.

(Directed at _K1RBYY_ )

I kiss him gently on his lips feeling his warm piercing on my lips.