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We are never getting back together.

~Pavitrs POV.

I wake up, my back aches.

"I love you pavitr."

"I love you too ga.. hobie" i panic.

We sat up.

"Gayatri? You're STILL thinking of her? Goddamn. I fucked you last night until you were screaming my name and your STILL fucking thinking of that cunt? I help you through your darkest and saddest moments and you fucking.. you do this- Fucking Pavitr, classic. Honestly, if you like her so much. Go fucking let her peg you."

"Hobie-.. its too early for this.. for all-.." i sigh.

"No- just fucking shut up! Just just the fuck up! Just go back to her if you love her so much that your thinking of her when you wake up!"

"FINE! I will go back to her! Fuck you! She loved me better anyways. You fucking asshole! I fucking hate you! I hate you i hate you!" I scream at him.

"Well fucking fine! I hate you too! You fucking cunt!" He yells back.

I slap him as hard as i can.

"What the fuck?! What?! Your pussy ass cant take a taste of your own fucking medicine?! God your so pathetic!"

"Well you know what?! I kissed her! Before we met up yesterday after class! I fucking kissed her, and i loveed it!" I yell.

"Your such a cunt!" He pushed me off the bed onto the floor. "GET OUT!" He yelled.

"You make every second of my life around you living hell except when your fucking my brains out! Even then i pretend your someone else!" i scream at him. "I live here too! Im not fucking leaving!"

"i hope you fucking die pavitr!" He screams.

"Fine ill just fucking kill myself! Is that what you want? You really want me dead?! Fine!" I scream.

"Im going out. Bye Pavitr." He sighs and leaves.

"Oh my fuckibg GOD!" I screamed at him and threw his backpack at the door as he closed it.

"We are never getting back together."

~10PM hobie came back (pvitrs POV)

"Go away Pavitr." He groaned.

"No, get your shit and go somewhere else." I say.

"Fuck off." He got all close and pushed me.

"Your so fucked, arent you? Your fucking drunk! Of course! Because you cant fucking HANDLE ANYTHING YOU STUPID FUCKING IDIOT!"

"You know who cant handle anything?! You! You talk about how i cant handle anything but whenever there's a bit of chub on you.. you know what you do?!"

"Dont.." i tear up.

"YOU PUKE UP YOUR GUTS TIL YOUR BLEEDING IN THE SINK OR YOUR  PASSED OUT ON THE FUCKING KITCHEN FLOOR.! AND IT DOESNT EVEN WORK BECAUSE YOUR STILL FUCKING FA-"

"SHUT UP! Shut up shut up!! STOP IT!"

He threw me at our side table and held me there.

"Your never gunna be happy with your body. Fucking deal with it, you fucking whore."

Im choking on tears at this point, crying my guts out.

"S..stop it babe.. please.." i cry out.

"Im not your fucking BOYFRIEND!" He headbutts me square in the nose and i feel blood pour down my nose.

"H..hobie..- what the FUCK is wrong with you?!" i push him back.

He grabs my wrist and throws me to the ground.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?!" He yells back.

I get up and run to the bathroom, he chases behind and puts his hand on the door frame and i didnt notice.

I slammed the door shut right on his knuckle.

"FUCK!!" I hear him yell.

I open the door.

"Wh- oh my god.." i stare at his hand, knuckles bleeding.

"What?! Just go fucking puke more." He slammed the door shut and i fell to the bathroom floor.

Crawling to the toilet i practically shove my hand into my throat and puke til my stomach aches, i see the blood from my nose pour down my hand. I go past the point of my stomach hurting, i keep throwing up.

I look at my bloodied wrist.

I get up carefully and go into the cabinet.

I grab a small box filled with spare razor blades.

I grab one and unwrap it.

I sit down in the bath with a towel.

I close my eyes and glide the blade deep into my wrist, quick and hard.

I look down at my wrist and see my arm wide open, a yellow-y bean kinda looking layer of skin showing.

"Fuck fuck-" i hold my arm tightly.

Hobie barges in.

"What? You fuckin cutting your wrists again? Jesus christ.. get out i need to take a shower."

"Go-.. go.." i feel my head getting foggy. I cant think or feel my arm.

Everything goes black.

I wake up gayas dorm with Gayatri at my side, my arm wrapped up tightly.

"Pavitr?" She hugs me tightly.

"Gaya.." i look over at hobie on my other side. "Hobie.." my breath hitches.

He raised his hand and i flinch a bit.

He just hugged me.

He kissed me after.

"Hobie.." i stare at him in shock.

"Im sorry." He says.

"I.. i.. im sorry Hobie-"

"Ill give you two a minute." Gayatri says before she leaves.

"I didnt do anything i said- i didnt kiss gayatri- i just wanted to get a rise out of you- im sorry im-"

"She told me."

"Im sorry.." i cry out.

"I know.. c'mon lets go back." He picked me up and we left.

"I love you pavitr.. im so sorry.. i didnt mean for all of this to happen.. i promise."

"M.." i didnt respond. Honestly thinking, do i love him?

God i dont want to think.