Destined To Collide

Chapter 10

The weekend directly after Donny's last POV; Sunday afternoon

Back in New Jersey

Carolynn-

I. Hate. Everything. Everything and everyone around me. Yes, I know how I sound and who I sound like. He's clearly rubbed off on me because now I'm about as jaded, cynical and angry as he was when I first met him.

Yes, I'm referring to Donny and I have quite a bit to say about him but I'll get to that when I meet with Kenny, Gina and Donny's dad Russ at their restaurant next door.

As a matter of fact, I'm waiting for them all now but the lunch rush is extremely busy so this gives me time to stew in my thoughts.

What. The. Hell. Seriously, what the hell? How can so much change in three months while nothing's really happening all at the same time.

Now where do I begin...? Well, let's start at the beginning; soon after Donny's big public declaration of his love for me at my store's grand opening.

For the first couple of weeks the love triangle was in full swing. I was overjoyed about Donny working for my dad; he really needs the money and I'm glad that he became inspired and motivated to change his life for the better.

I would speak with him on the phone daily while trying to dedicate myself to getting Spencer to be the man I thought he could be. It didn't take me long to realize; this is stupid. This is not a real love triangle. When Donny first said he was going to fight fair for me, I went along with it because I thought he was being amazing and unselfish by being so noble.

But thanks to being red pilled by Donny (and Chad to a lesser extent) I realize that Spencer's was never going to change nor did he want to. It was clear that he never loved me and the only reason he dated me for all those years was to curry favor from my father so he could one day take over the firm and I hate Spencer for that. The only reason I'm sticking with Spencer now is out of some childish need that I have my father's approval. I was so happy when he returned to our lives that I became a daddy's girl and that's the real reason I went out with Spencer in the first place because my father set us up.

It was completely unfair of me to tell Donny that he had to win my Dad over if he wanted a shot with me. What the hell was I thinking!? I'm a grown ass woman. I curse myself everyday for not just following my heart and choose Donny and be done with this. But no, I had to play my childish games.

I've really turned into Donny and I actually kind of like it. I can see why he sees the world the way he does. People are so fake; like my pretentious customers. My boutique is very successful in spite of me. I think I'm going to hand it over to my assistant managers because I'm the only cog in the wheel. All I do is bitch and bark at customers and my employees.

I hope they hurry up because I have a lot to get off my chest about Donny. They said they have information about him. It's about time, too. I haven't seen or heard from him in three months (that is, until a couple days ago but it was extremely brief; I'll explain in minute).

And I haven't gotten a call, or a text, or an email, or a handwritten letter, or smoke signals, or telegrams from him. I kind of don't blame him for ghosting me but I also kind of do. To top it all off no one's telling me anything about what's going on with him. Kenny and company haven't heard from Donny either, I can never get ahold of Chad or Janine, my dad acknowledge me when I mention Donny's name and just continues to push the idea of Spencer down my throat. Speaking of Spencer, he's the only one that's given me any sort of morsel. He told me that Donny was moved to a different department; that's it. Spencer can't tell me anything more because he doesn't care enough to find out anything more.