It's been 2 months
I am currently in Turkey as we have winter holidays
It is very beautiful here and I would like to stay here again and they told me that our holidays were extended, I was very happy about this now
I wanted to ask my mom to stay here some more
But she said that she had already bought tickets, so nothing can be done
Again this city, again this school and again these people
As for Aylana, we don't communicate.
I deleted her from my subscribers and unsubscribed from her so as not to see what was happening in her life, but she was not there
we had mutual friends and I subscribed to them
I saw Aylana in their stories she went to cooking classes
It was cute
Tomorrow we will fly back, so I'm packing my suitcase now.
After I packed my suitcase, I fell on the bed and lay like a star and fell asleep with the thoughts that in 2 days back to hell
That is, tomorrow the flight and after tomorrow back to hell
5 o'clock in the morning
We are at the airport and waiting for our flight, I am very sleepy because I only slept 3 hours
I'm thinking of taking a nap on the plane later.
Finally, our flight was announced and everyone goes to check-in
Registration is over and finally we are inside the plane, my sister woke up recently as she was sleeping in her mother's arms
I sat down in my seat, put on headphones and an eye patch and went to bed
My mother woke me up to eat, as the food was brought
I had no appetite and I continued to sleep
Landing
Finally the flight is over, we have already landed
We left the airport and our driver immediately came up to us to pick up our suitcases.
I held my sister's hand and my brother walked with his mother and discussed something
House
Finally we are home
I went to take a shower and immediately went to my bed, I can sleep all day I have another day
I woke up at 5 pm
Well I slept 11 hours and I have the energy now to go to my friends
I missed my girls so much
I haven't seen them for a long time
I went to get dressed and put on makeup
The driver was already waiting downstairs, so we got there quickly.
I went to the girls and I missed them so much my monkeys
I greeted each and sat down, as usual, we just talked about any topic and laughed, we all talked heart to heart and chatted, I didn't even notice how time passed
my mom called me
"daughter, it's almost 9 you have to come back" she said worried
"ok mom, i'm leaving now" i replied
I said goodbye to the girls and got out my driver was already waiting for me and we drove home
ok tomorrow is going to be a hard day
Tomorrow I will understand whether I was able to forget about her or tomorrow everything will be decided
With these thoughts I fell asleep
Now I'm on my way to school
I need to pull myself together and try not to cross paths with her, but a small part of me so wanted to see her.
In order not to cross paths with her today, I took a different path and I heard her voice
I came closer and saw that she was sitting on the stairs with her head down and talking to herself
"just forget about her"
"pretend you don't care"
"pretend it's not there"
"JUST DAMN FORGET HER ALREADY, you can," she said to herself
I felt so sad, she looked so broken
"Just pretend it's not there, just do it, I'll do it" she told herself
"I will pretend that I don't care even if I die inside, she made you understand that she hates you so accept it and move on" why does it hurt me so much to hear this?
I so want to go up to her and hug her, I missed her so much, I missed that voice so much
I need to get out of here quickly so she doesn't see me.
I quietly ran and went into my class, I was in so much pain, she looked so broken, did she hurt as much as me?
I put on headphones and put my head on the desk and slept on one arm, I remembered how we used to sleep like that and looked at each other it hurt so much and I turned away to the other side and closed my eyes
The bell rang
Everyone was already in class, well I fell asleep
I took off my earphone and decided to focus only on my studies this quarter, Millie and I tried to be more serious
Suddenly the teacher came in and brought two new ones to us
One guy and one girl with red hair and trousers, as I remember, girls are forbidden to wear trousers here, so I just shrugged my shoulders, she boldly said, I said in my head and continued to chat with millie
Millie knows everything that happens between me and curly
She and meriana support me in every possible way, they are really very kind, good friends, meriana sometimes tells and reports information about her to me if she gets sick there or something else
I ask her to make sure that this curly girl eats well and does not skip meals
I didn't notice how time flew by and now it's time for us to have lunch, I found out that our canteen was closed and therefore I had to go to the store today like everyone else
When I went downstairs, there is a large mirror near our entrance to the school and Millie and I decided to straighten our hair and I heard the voices of her friends
and I turned in their direction, I saw that the curly was behind them with her head down with her hands inside the pockets of her jacket and in the headphones
she put on the hood of her jacket and suddenly we looked at each other her eyes became empty and cold, her bangs became long and already covered her eyes a little, I remember that she complexed herself because of her eyes
But she has beautiful ones, every time I drown when I look into them, it's a pity that she doesn't understand this
I looked away and millie and I just went to the store
I bought a croissant for us with millie and asked her to take us water
I took the croissants and went towards the drinks and heard their voices
"what's wrong with you" asked millie
"it's okay" replied oisha
"You don't look okay, look what you've become"
"Are you sure you're okay" asked millie again
"yes" answered oisha and got ready to leave
"exactly?" asked millie holding her by the elbow
"leave me alone please, what do you want from me, I'm also a person, I'm also tired of something, it's normal, shouldn't you care as your friend, shouldn't you just ignore all this as well your friend" she said her voice broke, it hurt me so much to look at it, she was broken
"Oisha I'm also your friend, we've known each other for a long time, and I'm worried about you, everyone is worried about you"
"I didn't ask you," she said and left, she saw me and smiled nervously and went to the cashier
I approached millie
"I think she just needs time" I said
"let's pay already and leave" we walked towards the cash register and I saw how this curly girl was talking to our new girl, and she was smiling, I could already distinguish her real smile from a fake one, and I can say with confidence that this is not real
she just wants to show us that she's okay?
I decided to ignore it and just paid and we left with millie
On the way, we met sky and we walked all together, he walked next to me and showed some kind of funny video from the phone, how a person falls off a skateboard
It was painful but funny
I started laughing and millie did not look at me very well, she apparently still worries about oisha
They are actually good friends and quite close.
When the three of us went for a walk they always fooled around like children, oisha always made fun of her like a child and ran away from her and millie caught up with her and when she catch her she could not do anything because oisha was like a child and she just looked at her and scolded in words, they looked like little sister and big sister
I had one video, oisha asked me to take it off because she wanted to pour over a millie
when she approached millie quietly, millie turns around and pours water over her before her
It was so cute and funny, oisha was so scared then, then they started to drench themselves and they went home like 2 wet cats, but happy
I felt like a mother and looked after them
It's actually good when your best friend and your loved one are on good terms.
We got to school and millie and I said goodbye to sky and went to our class
I decided to write to Meriana and ask her
"meri"
"listening dear" she replied
"I saw today oisha with our newcomer, do they know each other?" I asked
"They just met today, and I want to say right away I already checked"
"What?"
"when we left the store, she didn't talk about her, I think she just wants to show that she is fine"
"I suspected, how is she now?"
"she lies on the desk and looks at the window"
"OK, please make sure she don't forget her pills"
"Okay dear, is there anything else you want to ask?"
"she didn't talk about me?" I decided to ask
"Well, today, when we left the store, we started discussing and nataliya and I were talking about you or that new one and oisha said stop comparing dinara with just anyone"
wow cute
"okay thanks darling" i wrote
"you're always welcome 😚"
Did she not like that I was compared to someone else? hmm cutie
I need courage
