I'm ready and on my way down
The driver is waiting, everything is as usual
I go to school and understand that today everything will not be as usual, of course it will not be easy, but who said that life is easy, you need to endure.
In class, Millie and I just talked about various topics, and sometimes it was even difficult for me to speak; I just wanted to close up and sleep, although we had a test in chemistry
The bell rang and the teacher came out, but Millie and I didn't turn in our notebooks for the test, and the teacher went up to the teacher's room on the 3rd floor and we quickly wrote down some problems and ran after him to hand in the notebooks, we ran to the teacher's room and when we handed it in and left (the teacher's room is located on against Curly's class) Millie went up to her brother and asked something and I was waiting for her, and the door to Curly's class was open and I looked at their class and was looking for Curly, when I saw her she was sleeping on the desk, is she feeling bad like me? does she regret what she said? These questions began to appear in my head, although why am I making this up? She always sleeps in class.
Milly finished talking with his brother and we went down to our class.
I decided that today I'll go to the dining room later so as not to cross paths with Curly because it really hurts me if I see her, I'll really miss her, I already miss her
The lessons passed unnoticed for me and it was already time for lunch. I stayed in the classroom with Millie to go later.
Some time passed and I noticed that my classmates were already coming back from lunch and I decided that it was already time to go out, to be honest, I still had no appetite from yesterday, but I didn't want Millie to go hungry and went out with her, we wanted to take buns and somewhere to sit and have a snack
When we first entered the store, you won't believe it, but there was a curly girl in front of us, she was wearing headphones, and when Millie noticed her, she immediately came up to her to say hello, when she turned to us, we had a guy making eye contact and I saw what kind of eyes she had there were tired eyes "was she sleeping?" "she is ill?" so many questions but I understand that now it has nothing to do with me, she showed a fake smile to Millie and greeted her and then looked at me and we just nodded to each other in greeting
Ailana was about to leave, but suddenly Millie said
"Aylana let's have lunch together"
Aylana looked at me and then at Millie
"The lesson will start now, I don't want to be late," she answered calmly
"Let's do something next time," she added.
"Okay then," Millie said and we went to get food and Aylana left
Millie looked at me with that same look
And at that moment I realized that now it will begin
"WHAT HAPPENED, Why aren't you talking? WHEN DID YOU FIGHT" began Millie
I know my friend well
"She wanted a break," I answered quickly.
"And you are not involved in this?" she asked suspecting me
"Of course not," I answered, rolling my eyes.
"EXACTLY?"
she asked I expect the truth from me
"Well, maybe a little bit? well a little bit"
I answered a little nervously
"WHAT IF IT'S MORE PRECISIVE??"
"Well, yes, it's my fault, but she herself said about the break."
I answered with a sigh
"And what have you done"
Millie asked annoyed
"Well, she said that we were growing apart from each other, and she was tired of it"
I answered sadly, and every time I remember this moment I accumulate so many tears and now is no exception, I really feel so much pain, I really want to be supported now
"I agree with Aylana, she is right"
Suddenly Millie said
I was shocked, I wanted to support this fool but she was on Aylana's side
"I can't believe it, are you my best friend or Aylana? you should be on my side!!"
I answered menacingly, I'm really offended
"Well, in this case, I'm for justice."
She answered quickly
"Okay, here you go to your justice"
I answered and stood up
Millie started laughing
But I wanted to cry so bad, she didn't even follow me, but it's for the best, I want to be alone
I went to school and went to our place and I saw a familiar silhouette, it was Aylana, is she skipping class? she sat there with her eyes closed and headphones on, I just looked at her, I miss this person so much, I think she doesn't even realize how much
I desperately want to hug her and for her to calm me down and support me, for her to say that everything will be fine.
I didn't want to run away and sat down next to her
I think my heart was beating at the speed of light
When I sat down, she opened her eyes and looked at me a little surprised.
"Hey"
I said
"Hello"
She answered calmly looking into my eyes.
"I think the break is bad for both of us, don't you think"
I asked very boldly and depressed
"Yes, may be"
She answered confused
"Is that all?"
I asked
"Dilara, you know, I think it's a break
has a bad influence on us, so let's break up completely, you see, I started to be distracted from my studies if my father finds out, you yourself understand what will happen, I don't want to disappoint anyone, so let's just end this completely."
I think now my heart is broken into a million small pieces, it's just broken and there's no way to fix it.
I started laughing nervously
"This is your dumbest joke Aylana"
"You're still making bad jokes."
I said rejecting her words
"I am not kidding"
She answered more seriously
"You're joking, you joke often, and this is another one of your jokes."
I said laughing nervously
I can't accept this
"Think as you want, but I'm not joking"
Aylana said and wanted to get up but I pulled her back
And she took her face in her hands and began to caress
"Babe, stop these jokes, they hurt me very much, it hurts me a lot, look at me, you're killing me completely from Nutri"
Aylana removed my hands
"Dilara, this will benefit us, stop it"
She said without emotion
"Because of this break, I'm going crazy and I can't find a place for myself, and you say that parting will be better? You understand what you're saying, please don't hurt me anymore, I really can't stand it anymore."
I started crying, I hate that I'm very vulnerable with her and very emotional, I really want to be strong but I can't
She didn't say anything and stood up and was about to leave.
"Yes, well done, as always, well done Aylana, you are running away again as always, can you at least once not run away from a problem? You're a damn coward, and I thought I was weak."
But suddenly she turned around and it was clear that she was holding back tears
"Are you the only one who thinks it's bad? Don't be selfish, I also have a lot of crap going on in my life, I have a lot of my own problems, shouldn't you be the person next to whom all my problems are forgotten? Why are you putting more pressure on me? Don't you see that I feel bad too, I also want you to be a home for me, just as I am for you, but day after day you understand worse and worse?"
You know, now I understand how broken she is, her eyes, her tone of voice, I understand how bad she is too, but I don't deny she is very strong and I really admire her, she also endures a lot, it turns out, and I really put even more pressure on her, I feel crazy I want to hug her, she looks so broken
"Bae"
I said but she interrupted me
"I'm really tired"
She said and left
I think we need to give her time too, I really didn't understand what was going on in her life lately
I understand how bad her father is for her health, and her mother, oh, I would like to share my mother with her, I think she really lacks parental love
