Crazy In Love With The Male Lead - ON HOLD

CHAPTER 47

"To tell you the truth, when we found out that you're pregnant, we contemplated a lot whether we're gonna yank the fetus out or let it stay." I confusedly stared at Dally when she just started to talk out of the sudden. Lucius, my son, laid himself down in the couch, his head on my lap. I smiled as I pinched his cheek. "Don't get me wrong, since you were in coma, it's natural that the child should be done for but.. it lived. It was so strong that it still holds on to you, alive. The child just struggles so much, I suggested that well, why not let him? But Dad was pretty concerned because you're both at risk. Thank God he didn't." I stared at my son while he's playing with my hands. He looks just like an angel without a care about anything. Yet the way his face crunches up for a bit every now and then reminds me of his father.

Bakit halos puro mga traits niya lang ang nakuha ng batang ito? Aside from my eyes, I can't think of anything else that he got from me. I don't know what to feel and I know that I couldn't hate my child just because he resembles his father so much. I looked at Dally who was just beside me before she was at the center of the living room teasing my obviously irritated son.

"Dally." I called her. Lumingon siya sa direksyon ko at tinapunan ako ng nagtatakang tingin."I couldn't thank you enough. You and your father have done way too much for us. Can I ask you why you did that?" I intently looked at her. Her eyes widened, evidently taken aback by my question. A couple of seconds passed by before she smiled at me.

"I see, you don't remember." Wika niya. I can feel my brows meeting because of what she said. Is there something important that I supposed not to forget?

"You were conscious for a few seconds, Loraine." I blinked, trying to understand what she's getting on. She sighed before meeting my eyes, hesitant. "Well, after we saw you on the seaside, we thought you were done for, but... you suddenly grabbed my arms. I still remember that time like the back of my hand and there you said 'Help me. Don't tell anyone.'. I really didn't know what to do and you hadn't wake up ever since." I gulped and my whole body tensed.

"I really.. said that?" And she nodded. Well, I'm pretty sure it's not me who said that. I would've known if I had. I'm certain that my original character was the one in my body that time. Ano bang iniisip niya at sinabi niya 'yon?

Tila nanghina akong napasandal sa double seated black velvet couch na kinauupuan ko. Looking back, maybe I should be thankful of her instead. Siguro nga hindi pa talaga ako handa na malaman nilang lahat. I won't be able to hide Lucius forever, I know that much. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko siya ipapakilala sa mundo ko nang hindi niya nakikilala ang ama niya. And who knows, maybe he's already married to Olivia by now. I don't want my son to be raised and treated like a bastard's son.

I was all arrogant when I decided to come back but now that I'm really myself, I'm so lost again. I never expected that it would be that long. Five years is too much. Hindi ko man lang nakasama ang anak ko sa loob ng ganon kahabang  panahon. I didn't get to hear his first cry, his first word, his first crawl, first walk or first run. What a disappointment of a mother I am.

I stared at my son, already asleep on my lap. I lightly caressed his jet black hair. I felt him stiffened and he moved.

"Mom?" He asked and I smiled. Maybe he's not so much like Lucas, after all. Lucius turned out to be a light sleeper like me it seems.

"Come on. I'll tuck you to your bed." He sat up and his face soured at me.

"Mom, I'm not a baby. I can sleep on my own." I just laughed at what he said. This is his child alright.