"Nothing But A Player" - Tom Kaulitz

Look At Me

One night, Bill looked at me straight in the eyes while Tom was asleep and said "Are you falling for him?" I raised my eyebrows and replied..
"Who?"
Bill looked worried and said..
"Tom.."
I looked at Bill in anxiety,
"I- Bill.. I dont know at this point."
Bill just sighed and went back to sleep.
But when it was morning I couldnt help but repeat Bill's words in my head.

"Are you falling for him?"

I looked at Tom and he smirked, that I took a glance at him. But I wasnt sure.. was Tom a player still ? I just sighed and I thought
"I should stop overthinking.."

I went upstairs and just sat on the bed, Tom went inside and, just sat right next to me.. and said.
"Look at me."

I looked at him straight at the eyes, and asked.
"What do you want ?"
He smirked, while touching my thigh and said,
"Nothing much, I just want you."
I looked at him furiously and said.
"Look Tom.. I dont know what game you're playing, but it wont work."
He smiled and said,
"Why cant you just stop being so difficult for me, and let me have you like the others I hooked up with."
I looked at him in disgust and replied,
"Are you serious ? Do you have like a mission to hook up with every girl you see ? Honestly go away.."
He chuckled and held my hand tight in a grip but I tried to pushed him. But he was too strong..
He smiled at me and said.
"You know.. just stop strugguling I could just have you any second, any minute. Now obey what I do !"
Tears fell down my cheeks as he slapped me in the face. My cheek stinged, and was pink, I cried more, and screamed
"You assaulted me you bitch !"
He grinned and said.
"I like it rough."
I pushed him hard ! He fell down the bed and a thud hit hard !
He looked at me not even flinching once. And said..
"You're weak.. you try to defend yourself."
I just cried as I told him to
"Shut up !"
He then said to me in a low-tone..
"All you're consecutive friend's know."
I looked at him in confusion and responded.
"Huh ?" He smiled at me and laughed while he said..
"You're so clueless aren't you ?"
I screamed at him.
"Know what !?" He then said..
"About the spectacular save of mine."
I looked at him.. I realised the man who was protecting me.. was also hurting me. I then squeled at him and said.
"Go away you, nasty hooker !" He laughed and said.
"You're so fiesty.. I like that. Like alot.."
I looked at him and made a gesture that I was about to puke because he said that.
But I remembered he assaulted me, and suddenly.. I snapped.
"Look Tom or whoever you are ! Just go away.. you ruined enough of my life go fuck yourself !" As I pushed him aggresively.. He looked at me in disbelief yet was smirking evilly..
He looked at me and whispered..
"You're so gullible.." and I looked at him and said while raising my eyebrows.
"How ?" I said..
"You trust people way to fast. You better watch out." His words gave me the chills but I stood my ground and said.
"Like you know me." I just rolled my eyes and, whispered right in my right ear. "Suit yourself darling." And kissed me on the cheek before going.

God I hated this man ! But whenever I was around him I felt happy.. and protected I despised myself.. for loving and hating him for a weird reason.
What was up with this guy..

The next day at school, people kept whispering while staring at me.. which made me uncomfortable, then I suddenly realised ! They were probally gossiping about the whole Tom sittuation, Jezzele came running up to me and said
"Girl you made all the fangirls go wild like hyenas !"
I looked at her and saw a group of girls, behind Jezzele giving me the death stare. I just awkwardly smiled at them before looking back to Jezzele saying,
"Oh my-" She told me why Tom saved me.
I just shrugged and said.
"I dont feel comfortable about this topic, you know I despise that weirdo !"
She just laughed like something was funny and took my hand, to our class.

When me and Jezzele went inside the class, they looked at me like I did something wrong ! I just smiled weakly and sat on my seat.
Next to Tom..
Tom looked at me and touched my hand softly. And smiled..
I pushed his hand and just ignored him the whole class period.
After class, Tom came running towards me and held my hand tight. And said,
"Stop ignoring me !" I responded and said,
"Why the hell do you care !? Go hook up with some girl or something.. isnt that like you're hobby?" He looked at me and laughed.
"God ur so difficult" and took me to a private room. I was speechless, and scared of what kind of trouble I've got into.. I told him..
"W-what are y-you doing T-tom..?"
He smirked before touching my shoulders and said.
"Are you a virgin? Is that why you're so scared ?" While playing with his lip ring looking at me.
I pushed him in the chest, and said.
"Uh.. No !" And tried to unlock the door. But.. Tom has locked it. I looked at him while sweat dripped down my forehead.. he smiled while swinging the keys in his hand.
He then went up to me and, wiped my sweat. I screamed at him.
"Dont touch me you weirdo !"
He chuckled and said.
"Oh I promise I wont.." while touching my thigh..
Oh my god.. did I think what was he going to do?.. oh no no.. scared for my virginity I tried to get the keys but Tom was so goddamn tall. I couldnt reach it.
He then said..
"Try getting it shortie."
That made me so mad.. I tried to slap him hard ! But he just laughed and unlocked the door..
I said.
"Never do that again." And he laughed saying..
"Ahah.. totally."

God I wanted to just punch this guy !
But I also liked when he gave me the attention.